can't take my mind off of you
why did i look? everytime i look, i get upset. but this was the worst. i know better. it doesn't help that i'm exhausted and getting nervous about somethings. but i don't think it matters. that picture fucking kills. and i am an idiot. at least i hadn't seen it when i called or i might have not called. or i might have freaked out, sounded like i was going to cry on the phone. it makes no sense to me. this is just a mess that seems to get bigger as each moment passes. why can't i shut down?