Lost

[itchytasty]

I was checking out a friend's MySpace today, and through several different links of friends and such, I came across a page that kind of shook me. The space belonged to a young woman in California. From most of the pictures that I looked at, she seems to be the nice, normal Cali girl that you read about. I scrolled down farther and saw a montage of pics with her fiance. Below the scrolling pics was the label: Just tell the angels I want you back! In a few of the pictures, he was wearing a police uniform, and I could see his name on it. A Google-click later, and I was looking at his Killed-in-the-line-of-duty page, with 300-400 memorial posts. He was killed on October 9th, 2005. It wasn't a crazy heroic guns-a-blazin' death, but a stupid one. He was setting out some warning cones to shut down a highway exit when a drunk driver hit him.

I read through about 100 of the memorial posts. Just the sheer amount of people that have shown their support and love for this man floored me. As of right now, I don't think I could feel any worse (I am home sick with flu-like bullshit). It's so fucking stupid and senseless. It pisses me off and saddens me. I feel like I want to beat the shit out of the guy who hit him. I wanna beat them all.

To my friends and anyone else out there who might read this: Don't ever risk me hating you. Because if you drink and drive, this kind of thing could happen. I would hate that. I'm unsure if my sickness if fucking with my brain and I'm taking this a lot worse than I normally would, but there it is.

I'm going to go lay down in the fetal position and die now.