Oct 09, 2004 23:00
I'm moving out. I'll still go to Dupo cong., tho. Working where the need is great is hard work; but a great privelege. Besides, moving out and moving away at the same time is just too much for me. One at a time will be an adjustment enough. But eventually, I want to go places, do things, meet people. Oh the ambition. I also want to put my feet on the couch, eat when I'm hungry, not when it's served, and come home whenever I surely please. I want to pursue as many spiritual goals as are possible for a single sister to attain. Perhaps I'm too ambitious. I always have liked to excell. And trying to do better than my brothers and sisters isn't the best attitude. But then again, if I CAN, and am ABLE, then there is no reason I SHOULDN'T, do something if it's for Jehovah. Perhaps I should concentrate on beating my personal bests - if I've got to compete to be motivated, then I should only compete with myself, knowing that the best version of me is the one that Jehovah will reward. Then, somewhere down the racetrack, should this system be continuing, if I meet a guy who's also running hard, he'll need to be able to take me places & do things -- always with new spiritual goals to attain. Because if he were to slow down, then I would slow down, and if I do that, I might stop. But I want to keep running; ever faster. So he's gonna have to be one proven and awarded runner already, because I can't read minds.
I should have my own place set up before the year is out. Yay! It will be time to paartayy! --in a good, wholesome & spiritual way, you betcha!