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I have never been this happy in my life. for once, I don't need to try to get his attention, I don't need to call him all the time wondering what he's doing, I don't have to worry about him, basically is what it comes down to. No matter what Joe will be my everything and no one can change that. I have dated other people and so has he, and we both realized that we could never care about anyone else the way we care about each other. I don't care what anyone says, I am going to marry this boy, eventually. I love waking up and being able to be next to him, it feels GREAT.
Right now, I feel like I've lost all my friends. Not that I wanted to, but it happens. I have just based my life lately around Joe, because I can see him almost whenever I want and I love him a lotttt! I do miss hanging out with some people, but people change. I've realized that people who are true and sincere will always have your back. Right now, I spend most of my time with Nina, Joe and Alisha. I also love being around Kristen, Kelly and Mary, cause they are the shiiiit. They are a lot of fun, and they are crazy. I know I can have a good time with them and trust them with anything.
Today I am feeling kind of weird. It's just that today, is the 2 year anniversary of my father's death, and it's just weird to think that people die. It's weird to think that you'd never see someone again after just one day. I know I wasn't that close to him, it just sucks to know that I'll never be able to get close to him. I miss him a lot. Certain things remind me of him, the way people say certain words, or the way my brothers act. Everything just somehow relates back to him. Today, Nina and I went to the beach again, just like last year. I wrote in the sand "RIP Daddy, I Love You, March 4, 2004" then we walked a little bit down the beach and picked up some sea shells. It was a good time. I didn't even cry that much. Anyway, my brothers coming over for dinner, so goodbye.
Right now, I feel like I've lost all my friends. Not that I wanted to, but it happens. I have just based my life lately around Joe, because I can see him almost whenever I want and I love him a lotttt! I do miss hanging out with some people, but people change. I've realized that people who are true and sincere will always have your back. Right now, I spend most of my time with Nina, Joe and Alisha. I also love being around Kristen, Kelly and Mary, cause they are the shiiiit. They are a lot of fun, and they are crazy. I know I can have a good time with them and trust them with anything.
Today I am feeling kind of weird. It's just that today, is the 2 year anniversary of my father's death, and it's just weird to think that people die. It's weird to think that you'd never see someone again after just one day. I know I wasn't that close to him, it just sucks to know that I'll never be able to get close to him. I miss him a lot. Certain things remind me of him, the way people say certain words, or the way my brothers act. Everything just somehow relates back to him. Today, Nina and I went to the beach again, just like last year. I wrote in the sand "RIP Daddy, I Love You, March 4, 2004" then we walked a little bit down the beach and picked up some sea shells. It was a good time. I didn't even cry that much. Anyway, my brothers coming over for dinner, so goodbye.