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Jun 13, 2005 20:47


things are ok.  hot.  stressfull.  but ok.   we're almost done.

i leave in two weeks. my first final is tomorrow.  ohgodimscrewed.  im not home right now and it is already 8:45...and i have yet to bake a cake for tomorrow morning.  shit.



i spoke with my father.  for over 45minutes.  of course 15 of that was with my sister..but still.  things will be ok. i hope.  i told him how he never listens to me on the phone.  how everything i say (good or bad) gets responded to with ..."oh well." or "thats too bad."  we joked about it...but he got the picture. i also told him he is being forced to watch both of this years plays ...and the entire play...not just the scenes im in.  he gave in to that order.  the phone call was good.  a lot of laughing histerically which reminded me of what i love so much about going to indy.  how brandy and i can gang up on my dad.  how my sister and my father are hilarious when they fight.  how my dad really is a goofball.  but an asshole too.  how my stepmother really knows me better than my dad..and how she does care...contrary to previous beliefs.   but what was he doing while on the phone with me? ebay.  ebay. ebay. ebay.  so i was second to ebay.  but i yelled at him and he finally listened.  ill call tomorrow for the money issues. wishmeluck.

it made me laugh a lot when i talked to my stepmother last night.  she said she finally found the dragon medallion that toby had given to me last summer.  hahaha.  my sister had stolen the piece of crap and i had thrown a huuuuge fit.  but now its just funny to look back at how incredibly dumb i was.  i think we all agreed that someone will throw it at the house or soemthing... maybe when i get there i can do the honors.

aparently my grandparents are moving to falmouth.  that was random...but yea.

i'll be honest. i have no more motivation. i cant be the only one putting effort into this.  its just not fair.  i feel used again.  alone.  everyday im reminded of how much of a loser i truely am. and how much i hate people.  but whatever..im leaving soon.  and maybe i just need a break.

but i dont want a break to mean im halfway across the country and not talking to anyone.  ohgodthatwouldsuck. 
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