May 04, 2005 11:57
I updated earlier this week, but I guess it didn't go through. This weekend was so draining. The memorial was 2 hours long, way too long. And before that was 2 hours of visiting the family. Karen did beautifully on her speech. After this experience I felt like I didn't even know Jason even though he lived with us for over a year. All they had to say was good things, and I'm just so upset that I never saw that. What also makes me mad is I wonder if Jason knew how many people loved him, maybe not me and my family, but he had such a huge support system that I don't think he ever realized.
Hopefully now Karen came start the grieving process and start to move on in her life. I know it will take a long time, but I think she can fully start living her life. His parents and family will still be there and they truly are great people. I felt like I have moved closer to their family because of this. I had so much hated and defense to hold up that now I don't need. It's going to be hard, but I feel like this big weight his been lifted.
On a lighter note. I'm doing really well on my exams, 104% on my Environmental Science. Very happy. And I'm going to be the co-captain with Donald for the U.S.F. Herd of Thunder Colorguard new year. I'm excited and I hope everything works out.
Last night I went out with Emily, Crystal, Emily, Anna, and Lindsey (I think that was her name) I had so much fun. At first i wasn't going to go, but I'm really glad I did. I am so excited to move into our apartment in a couple of months. Can't wait. Well, I'm going to go study some more for my sex class exam. Good Luck to everyone.
I want to thank everyone who has supported my family and I during these hard times. I am truly blessed. Thank you and I love you!