ARG, I suck.
I went missing.
Not that that isn't usual, and this time I had major things going on (family member passed away, dad totaled his car, got the job of my dreams on top of my other job), but damn, I feel guilty. Oh, and I'm sick as a dog, so this all may make no sense. :D
So I've gotta ask, what've you guys been up to? Anything interesting?
And because I never come without bearing gifts, but have no new music uploaded at the moment (totally open to suggestions and requests!) I'll just post the fun little writing challenge I did the other day. Because I'm a writer. And it's what I do.
So the challenge is:
1. Pick a character, fandom, pairing, friendship, whatever.
2. Put on your music program on shuffle/random and start playing songs.
3. For each song, write something inspired by the song related to the theme you chose earlier. You only have the song length. No pre-planning and no writing after the song is over. No skipping songs either.
4. Do 10 songs and post. Make sure to include the song name/artist.
My theme is meh novel, Rain.
1. Same Old World - Fingertips
I looked across the dying cityscape, feeling what I'd done to it. And it wasn't as if I had any excuse to doing it either.
I was a child who wanted to play with fire. Two people died from my foolishness by my own hand, and many more that I had no connection to were dying as I spoke, those creatures she nicknamed as "Dha" toying with their human victims before snuffing them out of existence.
And I heard their screams as they were killed by mindless teeth and claws, the crowded city below drowning in blood as I watched.
So I made my decision and fell.
2. Welcome to the World of the Plastic Beach - Gorillaz
I smiled as turned my stick turned into something almost indescribable in intricate beauty, blades bending and weaving together not unlike vines into something much deadlier than anything his idiotic claws could ever be.
"Impressive," he admitted, his grin widening at how ridiculously overzealous I was. "But can you use it?" He asked as he bent down like an animal, his vicious claws slowly appearing out of thin air.
"Oh, you bet I can."
I grinned wickedly and darted forward.
3. Lady - The Battle of Land and Sea
His fingertips delicately touched mine.
"Are you sure?" He asked. "I didn't say you had to do this."
"You would never say I had to do anything, Frey," I said gently, my focus changing and my eyes closing.
He had told me before that it wouldn't be obvious. No matter how well you knew yourself, you never got to know your soul. But I had to try.
"Kawelu," he said softly, delicately enough not to draw me out of the trance I'd lowered myself into, "think of how you feel when your fingers run along the vines you've grown, or across the temple of a newborn baby." His fingers started sneaking up my arms. "How you feel when you're happier than you can say." I felt him on my shoulders, along my collarbone. "How you feel when you're in love." I felt his thumbs delicately brush my cheeks as his lips came down on mine.
4. Human - Civil Twilight
She was sleeping. Peacefully. I thought that it might have been that. She was much more impressive than anyone could have realized, I think.
I reached out and ran a hand through her hair.
Never, ever, did I think this would happen. I expected to find the person, explain the circumstances and to prepare whoever it was for their struggle ahead before I finally left this world and finally rested. I didn't want to go on living any longer than I had to.
But now?
I don't think I could leave her unless the very earth tried to tear me away, and even then it would be hard.
There was a knock at the door...
5. Tragedy Bound - The Bravery
I couldn't feel the pain. All I could feel was the need. Was he alive still? Would I reach him in time? Suki said...
But no one knew for sure. Everything depended on me.
I rode so hard even my middle went numb. Duma couldn't continue at that pace, I knew, but this was all I had to live for. He was the end all and be all now. Because he was my only attachment to anything. Yes, the tribe was important, Suki , Stan, the rest of them, no matter the ones who thought they were right in doing this. But they now held nothing to what I needed in Frey.
And every second I had wasted since Enlil...
Could he be dead?
6. See the Sun - The Kooks
She was an ass. Well that was such a lovely development.
I knew I'd done a lot wrong, but at least fate could have taken it easy on me. But nope, it laughed in my face and decided to give me an ignorant little girl as my only hope. Gotta love that humor, huh?
Was it sad of me to have hope, though? I saw how she loved her friends. Was it that I was an outsider? No...
Look at how she sees everyone else in the tribe, even the other people who came from outside.
Did she know what I was?
More importantly, did she know what I was?
Well, I guess it could be worse.
7. Falling - The Civil Wars
I walked through the forest without a care. It really had become a lush place since
No, I wouldn't think about that.
I had to keep walking.
I didn't want to leave. I could have fought. But there was something eating away at me, and I couldn't help but run when I had the chance. I had to take care of It before I could go back to her. That was, if she would take me back.
Not that I would leave her alone. I smiled slightly at the thought of shadowing her just like I used to. Oh god, she would hate it and I would just laugh at her, just like before. Before
But I had to do this first.
And hope I came back.
8. Run - Snow patrol
"No!" I screamed, my voice cracking. "You're not leaving me!"
"I'm sorry." He said simply.
"Dammit Frey! You can't!"
"Really? You're going to stop me?"
"Yes!" I practically squeaked at him, tears running down my face.
He broke at that.
"I...They're right. I'm not doing anything for you anymore. You know more than I do at this point, and all I seem to do is bring tragedy. You have to go back. Your tribe matters more to you than anything, I understand that."
I shook my head, unable to speak.
He leaned down and kissed my head.
"Maybe I'll see you again someday."
And he was gone.
And a part of me left with him to, leaving me feeling empty. But I couldn't follow him. He was right. I had to take care of my tribe.
But...I think that was the biggest mistake of my life.
9. Red Hands and White Knuckles - The Bravery
"What are you saying?" I asked, trying to say calm.
"I'm saying that what you're standing for is stupid. That this is a bigger risk that it's worth."
"Like hell you know anything."
"Are you saying you won't agree with me on this?"
"Never," I hissed.
"Well then, this is for your own good." Suddenly he grabbed a hold of my arm, trying to swing it into a position so that he'd be able to restrain me. Hah. I was taught better than that.
I swung him up and down so that he landed with a sharp crack on the ground.
"You're too late anyways," he tried to squeeze out of his shocked lungs.
No.
They already had him.
10. Not Afraid - Acceptance + Open Your Eyes - Snow Patrol
"You're scared, aren't you?" Frey asked with a grin.
"Stop being ridiculous," I said through clenched teeth as my hand trembled in front of me.
"Here, relax." He knelt down behind me and reached out to hold my hand in his. It was funny, I never really noticed how absolutely huge he was until he was leaning over me, the heat of his chest easily felt through my thin shirt...
He slipped his hand underneath mine. "Now, stretch out your hand to fit mine."
He spread his fingers out under mine and I echoed his motion, my hand looking small and fragile in his.
"Now lower it-"
"Frey," I interrupted. I needed to get this out, once and for all.
"Yes?" He asked, his voice hinting at the anxiety that mine held. Well, at least he knew what I was thinking.
"Why did you...kiss me?"
He was quiet. "I didn't do it for the same reason or intention as Artemas you know, it's not like that."
"I know. I know you better than you think, you know."
"Then do you know why I did it?"
It was my turn to be quiet. "You...have feelings? For me?"
He laughed a short tense laugh. "I don't think someone kisses someone else unless there's some sort of feeling there."
I scowled and moved my hand out from under his, turning to face him. Needless to say, our noses were only inches apart as I breathed, "Frey, say it."
"Fine," he replied, just as softly. "I think," he smiled, "I have feelings for you."
"Good then."
And I leaned in to meet his lips.
~~~
Oh mai, look at the fluff.
And if for some weird reason this piqued your interest, Here's my table of contents for the story over on dA.
And that's it? I think so.
Not that that isn't usual, and this time I had major things going on (family member passed away, dad totaled his car, got the job of my dreams on top of my other job), but damn, I feel guilty. Oh, and I'm sick as a dog, so this all may make no sense. :D
So I've gotta ask, what've you guys been up to? Anything interesting?
And because I never come without bearing gifts, but have no new music uploaded at the moment (totally open to suggestions and requests!) I'll just post the fun little writing challenge I did the other day. Because I'm a writer. And it's what I do.
So the challenge is:
1. Pick a character, fandom, pairing, friendship, whatever.
2. Put on your music program on shuffle/random and start playing songs.
3. For each song, write something inspired by the song related to the theme you chose earlier. You only have the song length. No pre-planning and no writing after the song is over. No skipping songs either.
4. Do 10 songs and post. Make sure to include the song name/artist.
My theme is meh novel, Rain.
1. Same Old World - Fingertips
I looked across the dying cityscape, feeling what I'd done to it. And it wasn't as if I had any excuse to doing it either.
I was a child who wanted to play with fire. Two people died from my foolishness by my own hand, and many more that I had no connection to were dying as I spoke, those creatures she nicknamed as "Dha" toying with their human victims before snuffing them out of existence.
And I heard their screams as they were killed by mindless teeth and claws, the crowded city below drowning in blood as I watched.
So I made my decision and fell.
2. Welcome to the World of the Plastic Beach - Gorillaz
I smiled as turned my stick turned into something almost indescribable in intricate beauty, blades bending and weaving together not unlike vines into something much deadlier than anything his idiotic claws could ever be.
"Impressive," he admitted, his grin widening at how ridiculously overzealous I was. "But can you use it?" He asked as he bent down like an animal, his vicious claws slowly appearing out of thin air.
"Oh, you bet I can."
I grinned wickedly and darted forward.
3. Lady - The Battle of Land and Sea
His fingertips delicately touched mine.
"Are you sure?" He asked. "I didn't say you had to do this."
"You would never say I had to do anything, Frey," I said gently, my focus changing and my eyes closing.
He had told me before that it wouldn't be obvious. No matter how well you knew yourself, you never got to know your soul. But I had to try.
"Kawelu," he said softly, delicately enough not to draw me out of the trance I'd lowered myself into, "think of how you feel when your fingers run along the vines you've grown, or across the temple of a newborn baby." His fingers started sneaking up my arms. "How you feel when you're happier than you can say." I felt him on my shoulders, along my collarbone. "How you feel when you're in love." I felt his thumbs delicately brush my cheeks as his lips came down on mine.
4. Human - Civil Twilight
She was sleeping. Peacefully. I thought that it might have been that. She was much more impressive than anyone could have realized, I think.
I reached out and ran a hand through her hair.
Never, ever, did I think this would happen. I expected to find the person, explain the circumstances and to prepare whoever it was for their struggle ahead before I finally left this world and finally rested. I didn't want to go on living any longer than I had to.
But now?
I don't think I could leave her unless the very earth tried to tear me away, and even then it would be hard.
There was a knock at the door...
5. Tragedy Bound - The Bravery
I couldn't feel the pain. All I could feel was the need. Was he alive still? Would I reach him in time? Suki said...
But no one knew for sure. Everything depended on me.
I rode so hard even my middle went numb. Duma couldn't continue at that pace, I knew, but this was all I had to live for. He was the end all and be all now. Because he was my only attachment to anything. Yes, the tribe was important, Suki , Stan, the rest of them, no matter the ones who thought they were right in doing this. But they now held nothing to what I needed in Frey.
And every second I had wasted since Enlil...
Could he be dead?
6. See the Sun - The Kooks
She was an ass. Well that was such a lovely development.
I knew I'd done a lot wrong, but at least fate could have taken it easy on me. But nope, it laughed in my face and decided to give me an ignorant little girl as my only hope. Gotta love that humor, huh?
Was it sad of me to have hope, though? I saw how she loved her friends. Was it that I was an outsider? No...
Look at how she sees everyone else in the tribe, even the other people who came from outside.
Did she know what I was?
More importantly, did she know what I was?
Well, I guess it could be worse.
7. Falling - The Civil Wars
I walked through the forest without a care. It really had become a lush place since
No, I wouldn't think about that.
I had to keep walking.
I didn't want to leave. I could have fought. But there was something eating away at me, and I couldn't help but run when I had the chance. I had to take care of It before I could go back to her. That was, if she would take me back.
Not that I would leave her alone. I smiled slightly at the thought of shadowing her just like I used to. Oh god, she would hate it and I would just laugh at her, just like before. Before
But I had to do this first.
And hope I came back.
8. Run - Snow patrol
"No!" I screamed, my voice cracking. "You're not leaving me!"
"I'm sorry." He said simply.
"Dammit Frey! You can't!"
"Really? You're going to stop me?"
"Yes!" I practically squeaked at him, tears running down my face.
He broke at that.
"I...They're right. I'm not doing anything for you anymore. You know more than I do at this point, and all I seem to do is bring tragedy. You have to go back. Your tribe matters more to you than anything, I understand that."
I shook my head, unable to speak.
He leaned down and kissed my head.
"Maybe I'll see you again someday."
And he was gone.
And a part of me left with him to, leaving me feeling empty. But I couldn't follow him. He was right. I had to take care of my tribe.
But...I think that was the biggest mistake of my life.
9. Red Hands and White Knuckles - The Bravery
"What are you saying?" I asked, trying to say calm.
"I'm saying that what you're standing for is stupid. That this is a bigger risk that it's worth."
"Like hell you know anything."
"Are you saying you won't agree with me on this?"
"Never," I hissed.
"Well then, this is for your own good." Suddenly he grabbed a hold of my arm, trying to swing it into a position so that he'd be able to restrain me. Hah. I was taught better than that.
I swung him up and down so that he landed with a sharp crack on the ground.
"You're too late anyways," he tried to squeeze out of his shocked lungs.
No.
They already had him.
10. Not Afraid - Acceptance + Open Your Eyes - Snow Patrol
"You're scared, aren't you?" Frey asked with a grin.
"Stop being ridiculous," I said through clenched teeth as my hand trembled in front of me.
"Here, relax." He knelt down behind me and reached out to hold my hand in his. It was funny, I never really noticed how absolutely huge he was until he was leaning over me, the heat of his chest easily felt through my thin shirt...
He slipped his hand underneath mine. "Now, stretch out your hand to fit mine."
He spread his fingers out under mine and I echoed his motion, my hand looking small and fragile in his.
"Now lower it-"
"Frey," I interrupted. I needed to get this out, once and for all.
"Yes?" He asked, his voice hinting at the anxiety that mine held. Well, at least he knew what I was thinking.
"Why did you...kiss me?"
He was quiet. "I didn't do it for the same reason or intention as Artemas you know, it's not like that."
"I know. I know you better than you think, you know."
"Then do you know why I did it?"
It was my turn to be quiet. "You...have feelings? For me?"
He laughed a short tense laugh. "I don't think someone kisses someone else unless there's some sort of feeling there."
I scowled and moved my hand out from under his, turning to face him. Needless to say, our noses were only inches apart as I breathed, "Frey, say it."
"Fine," he replied, just as softly. "I think," he smiled, "I have feelings for you."
"Good then."
And I leaned in to meet his lips.
~~~
Oh mai, look at the fluff.
And if for some weird reason this piqued your interest, Here's my table of contents for the story over on dA.
And that's it? I think so.