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i finally broke down and cried today. i feel like jonathan doesnt care for me as much as i care for him. is this all in my head? he hasnt called me, i am worried. i left flowers, balloons, and a letter on his car and then rolled it. why hasnt he acknowleged it? why doesnt he look deep into my eyes and tell me how much he cares for me. christmas eve is 6 months, isnt that enough to get some care?
i miss home. i miss chris connick. i listened to the song he wrote me several times. aside from alicia and chris hyde he is my best friend. he was in love with me and i was to dumb to notice it and i broke his heart. why am i so oblivious to life and others i cared deeply for?
i go home for a visit on the 21.
i miss home. i miss chris connick. i listened to the song he wrote me several times. aside from alicia and chris hyde he is my best friend. he was in love with me and i was to dumb to notice it and i broke his heart. why am i so oblivious to life and others i cared deeply for?
i go home for a visit on the 21.