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i sit from afar and stare at my empty room. my walls are bare, floor is visable, no clutter to be found under my bed. nothing is left. i began packing last night. i threw most of my things away. i cant believe that im doing this with dad knowing. i guess its better than running away like last time. well this time dad actually doesnt want me here, hes moving in with sue and doesnt want me around... he has told me so.
my heart is collapsing. my world was turned a bland shade of gray. my life doesnt seem to even be worth half as much as i thought it was. within the last 2 months i have put up a barrier to hide the real me. i have the greatest feeling once im in louisiana i will become silent again. i dont mind though.
i havent inflicted pain on myself in a while. im not sure if im proud or not.
my heart is collapsing. my world was turned a bland shade of gray. my life doesnt seem to even be worth half as much as i thought it was. within the last 2 months i have put up a barrier to hide the real me. i have the greatest feeling once im in louisiana i will become silent again. i dont mind though.
i havent inflicted pain on myself in a while. im not sure if im proud or not.