I think I'm gonna cry again...

[islandergurl35]

Well this sucks. I had it all...and gave it all up. I don't know what to think. One part of me wants to ask him, but another says "don't bother, u know what he'll say." I just feel so bad. I know I deserve this, and probably even more than what I'm getting, but still. It doesn't make it any easier. I'm so confused. I really don't know what to think about what's going on. I know that I'm supposed to be this ice bitch or something now, but I just can't help it. Everything contradicts...on one side we act like we're still going out, but then on another, he gets pissed when I try to have some fun.

I feel like crying, but I know I have no right to. After all, I did it to myself...

~Chrissy