last night...
last night was amazing. well, let's just start out by mentioning that my brother is insane. i've never seen someone get soooo freaked out by having their oil checked. first of all, he seemed REALLY wired anyway. talking really fast and not making much sense. then, he's falling all over the van. jumping around. yelling for no reason. stumbling over every sentence that he attempts to put together. the entire drive out to his moms house was like hell. i honestly didn't know what he was going to do next. i asked him if he was on anything and he said no. maybe it was his blood-sugar levels or something. we finally made it in one piece.
nonetheless, last night was amazing.
what can be said about a girl like her? she invites me to come out to her work after hours. decorate her room. do LOTS of talking. it's nice to know that i have a companion in the world. i've known people throughout my life who at one point shared my views and opinions, but they have all... ALL changed. i no longer have a single friend who hasn't given up on their beliefs/morals/views in some way. but, i digress. she sees the world like i do. there are people who have this notion of what life should be. unfortunately, this notion seldom includes anything other than the "norm". we grow up, go to school, graduate/drop out, have kids, get married, get divorced, WORK, go nowhere, do nothing, etc. she said something that really made my ears perk like peanut butter. i want to live a life that has never been lived. i'm going to take a short break from this entry to get some work done and also to marinate on that last statement for a minute... i'm back.
jarsh called yesterday. he just doesn't get it. i really do wish that i could blow off work to hang out with you. i just get pissed off when i have to tell him that i can't hang out. this whole "work" thing just sucks. that's why karen and i aren't better friends. she just doesn't understand that i can't just "make time" for her. i don't get it. these people must think that i actually enjoy telling them that i'm just too busy to hang out. i'm tired of being grilled about it to be honest. that's what happened with karen. she calls me up one day and starts talking about being in indy for a day. you know, i'm sorry. really. i just can't hang out. i hurt her feelings a little when she asked me if we're EVER going to hang out, to which i replied "aww. it's cute that you think that i have time for you." i may have come off like a dickhead, but sweet baby jesus. i wish i could go camping with candace tonight, but nope. i'll be here. at work. working. sucking. horribly.