Well the future's got me worried such awful thoughts...
[x] i'm still here. i know not many read or care, but i am still here. i'm still living a mediocre life too. nothing really new is going on. i had a week off work before i went in on friday morning. the week was ok i guess. i didnt do much. smoked a lot of pot. drank. exercised. thought. slept. i think i may have some form of clinical depression or bipolar disorder. i read about both last week and then i took what i read and my life, the way i act, the things i do fit right into the symptoms...wow. i need help. i feel like i live in a hole. like no one cares. like i will be alone forever. it effects the way i act around people, the way i spend money, my self esteem. i feel like i am missing out on my life.
[x] i wish i were better at talking to girls.i feel like a fucking kid. i have no self esteem, so i have this crazy idea forged in my head that girls are better than me and girls that i consider attractive probably will not want to talk to me. i really want someone. just to talk to if nothing else.
[x] i wish i were better at talking to girls.i feel like a fucking kid. i have no self esteem, so i have this crazy idea forged in my head that girls are better than me and girls that i consider attractive probably will not want to talk to me. i really want someone. just to talk to if nothing else.