Like A Boss
My bedroom window is open and I hear the latest storm waging war with the world outside. So many things have happened, so many things have changed. But I am at peace. I feel as though I have reached a peak that signals some sort of formal graduation. Another starting point is waiting for me, sure. I can feel it. Though, right here, right now, I breathe in and there's no pain. There's a bittersweet, almost euphoric, sense of survival that tinges every breath, every gesture. Not too long ago, I thought I was going to tip over and become broken, terminally. And now, I look down and I see the scars and feel the tenderness around my edges, but I'm okay.
You hear me? I'm okay. I've suffered some damage, but I'm not damaged. Those wielding weapons have dealt me blows, of course and though I have been wounded, I'm not dying. I'm alive. There's an energy vibrating around me, humming and it feels beautiful. I wake up in the early morning and I smile in the dark. There's an integral part of my soul that is transforming from the girl I used to be into the woman I am becoming and she's unpredictable and funny, she's beautiful and determined. I am becoming fire again, I can feel it warming my blood. And after being cold for so long, it feels like a dream.
There are no regrets. I had been fooled and I had fooled myself but amidst the lies, I got the chance to purge and to play with the demons that were haunting me. To them, I wish the best. I am keeping my secrets close to my chest but my smile, that I will keep on display. Everything has been set straight and everything feels right.
You hear me? I'm okay. I've suffered some damage, but I'm not damaged. Those wielding weapons have dealt me blows, of course and though I have been wounded, I'm not dying. I'm alive. There's an energy vibrating around me, humming and it feels beautiful. I wake up in the early morning and I smile in the dark. There's an integral part of my soul that is transforming from the girl I used to be into the woman I am becoming and she's unpredictable and funny, she's beautiful and determined. I am becoming fire again, I can feel it warming my blood. And after being cold for so long, it feels like a dream.
There are no regrets. I had been fooled and I had fooled myself but amidst the lies, I got the chance to purge and to play with the demons that were haunting me. To them, I wish the best. I am keeping my secrets close to my chest but my smile, that I will keep on display. Everything has been set straight and everything feels right.