I am beat, kittens.
HEY UNIVERSE: STOP SUCKING. If one more damn disaster hits my friends, I am not going to be held responsible for my actions. We are clear on this, I assume?
Last night I found myself falling asleep at the club. Let's backtrack a little to explain how particularly weird that is for me. I was uncomfortably positioned on a couch, though at least horizontal. I was wearing a poky bustier and a pair of heels that didn't quite fit. I was cold and had things glued to my legs, someone's very buckly, occupied boot was thrown over my thighs, and there was a dance floor through the very large, open doorway. I was in public, around people who I had never met before, who had probably been drinking, and whose access to my area I could not control. Not even my paranoia could keep me awake last night. That is how tired I am. I am going to slip into the happiest coma ever once I hit post.
In lieu of an actual post, have a meme. Which I typed up on Saturday and then forgot about due to plan changes. I'm not updating it. SO THERE.
1. I've come to realize that my butt: has a disturbingly independent streak.
2. I've come to realize that when I talk: I chameleon the speech patterns and, to a degree, mannerisms of the people with whom I've been spending the most time.
3. I've come to realize that if I love someone: they have more power over me than I am comfortable admitting.
4. I've come to realize that I need: too many things, and that I am not getting most of them anytime soon.
5. I've come to realize that I've lost: my confidence in my talent.
6. I've come to realize that I hate it when: I hurt or disappoint anyone else.
7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk: we're in The Future, 'cause it hasn't happened yet.
8. I've come to realize that money: is the focus of a large amount of my time, resentment, and anxiety.
9. I've come to realize that my mother: is not as self-assured as I had thought.
10. I've come to realize that I'll probably always be: tall and apparently not easily believed.
11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on: talent.
12. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was: not in front of anyone, thankfully.
13. I've come to realize that my cell phone: beginneth to take over my life.
14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning: it's a good thing nobody else is around.
15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night: I roll over at least twice and need something to curl around.
16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about: which semi-recent song this musical hook I have stuck in my head came from.
17. I've come to realize that babies: are delightful when I can give them back.
18. I've come to realize that when I get on livejournal: I suddenly become amnesiac with regards to anything interesting.
19. I've come to realize that today I will: be oddly domestic.
20. I've come to realize that tonight I will: go to sleep so, so hard.
21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will: undergo some interesting costume changes.
22. I've come to realize that I really want to: find my way back to what I love.
23. I've come to realize that who is most likely to repost this is: ...A MYSTERY! ::jazz hands::
24. I've come to realize relationships: will be few and far between in my life, if present at all. (I'm assuming this means "Relationships," not "interactions between people.")
25. I've come to realize love: is something I have to give away, rather than continuing to wait in vain for it to approach me.
26. I've come to realize my best guy friend(s): all have some issue or other that has to be tiptoed around, and that's a little sad.
27. I've come to realize my best girl friend(s): are my sisters, more so than my biological sibling, and I am so grateful that they choose to care about me.
28. I've come to realize food: makes me happy. Admittedly, I realized this when I was about three.
29. I've come to realize that when I'm a girlfriend: it is, again, clearly The Future.
30. I've come to realize girls and boys: need to just bloody talk honestly, listen to each other, and then ACT ON that honesty. Sheesh, people.
31. I've come to realize over the summer: I have to have a bunch of costumes ready. But at least now I have a way to fake Balalaika's breasts.
32. I've come to realize heartbreak: terrifies me.
I'm going to sleep now.
Last night I found myself falling asleep at the club. Let's backtrack a little to explain how particularly weird that is for me. I was uncomfortably positioned on a couch, though at least horizontal. I was wearing a poky bustier and a pair of heels that didn't quite fit. I was cold and had things glued to my legs, someone's very buckly, occupied boot was thrown over my thighs, and there was a dance floor through the very large, open doorway. I was in public, around people who I had never met before, who had probably been drinking, and whose access to my area I could not control. Not even my paranoia could keep me awake last night. That is how tired I am. I am going to slip into the happiest coma ever once I hit post.
In lieu of an actual post, have a meme. Which I typed up on Saturday and then forgot about due to plan changes. I'm not updating it. SO THERE.
1. I've come to realize that my butt: has a disturbingly independent streak.
2. I've come to realize that when I talk: I chameleon the speech patterns and, to a degree, mannerisms of the people with whom I've been spending the most time.
3. I've come to realize that if I love someone: they have more power over me than I am comfortable admitting.
4. I've come to realize that I need: too many things, and that I am not getting most of them anytime soon.
5. I've come to realize that I've lost: my confidence in my talent.
6. I've come to realize that I hate it when: I hurt or disappoint anyone else.
7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk: we're in The Future, 'cause it hasn't happened yet.
8. I've come to realize that money: is the focus of a large amount of my time, resentment, and anxiety.
9. I've come to realize that my mother: is not as self-assured as I had thought.
10. I've come to realize that I'll probably always be: tall and apparently not easily believed.
11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on: talent.
12. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was: not in front of anyone, thankfully.
13. I've come to realize that my cell phone: beginneth to take over my life.
14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning: it's a good thing nobody else is around.
15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night: I roll over at least twice and need something to curl around.
16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about: which semi-recent song this musical hook I have stuck in my head came from.
17. I've come to realize that babies: are delightful when I can give them back.
18. I've come to realize that when I get on livejournal: I suddenly become amnesiac with regards to anything interesting.
19. I've come to realize that today I will: be oddly domestic.
20. I've come to realize that tonight I will: go to sleep so, so hard.
21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will: undergo some interesting costume changes.
22. I've come to realize that I really want to: find my way back to what I love.
23. I've come to realize that who is most likely to repost this is: ...A MYSTERY! ::jazz hands::
24. I've come to realize relationships: will be few and far between in my life, if present at all. (I'm assuming this means "Relationships," not "interactions between people.")
25. I've come to realize love: is something I have to give away, rather than continuing to wait in vain for it to approach me.
26. I've come to realize my best guy friend(s): all have some issue or other that has to be tiptoed around, and that's a little sad.
27. I've come to realize my best girl friend(s): are my sisters, more so than my biological sibling, and I am so grateful that they choose to care about me.
28. I've come to realize food: makes me happy. Admittedly, I realized this when I was about three.
29. I've come to realize that when I'm a girlfriend: it is, again, clearly The Future.
30. I've come to realize girls and boys: need to just bloody talk honestly, listen to each other, and then ACT ON that honesty. Sheesh, people.
31. I've come to realize over the summer: I have to have a bunch of costumes ready. But at least now I have a way to fake Balalaika's breasts.
32. I've come to realize heartbreak: terrifies me.
I'm going to sleep now.