*sigh*
Monday, December 5, 2005 \ Time: 9:16 P.M. \ Mood: sleepy. \ Song: Someone Mopping.
Once again on call. When am I ever not on call... It's Adams, Shamof and Leenu. She seems OK. It's weird... It seems like I'm the once calling the shots instead of being the follower. She's quiet too, but not as much as me...
Anyway, what is there to say? Nothing crazy during the day. At least that I can think of. Just finished dinner with Dr. Adams... My God he likes to talk. He went on and on and on... Seriously, we were like there for maybe almost 3 hours. No one paged. I was praying for a page. Just to stop being there. I was cold, shivering yet trying not to so my muscles were tensing up... Then I'm zoning out cause I'm too tired. Yawning.
Yeah, I'm really sleepy... But I got to kill some time so my phone can charge at least a bit.
Today \ Now
First of all. One of the post call days. Something about being post call... Even when I've had a full night of sleep, I still have the urge to sleep.
Stuff I didn't write in last cause of paranoia...
Ugh... More of me hating Eva. So she's all like we should send someone to radiology instead of us going individually and pissing them off. She then asks her who will go with her. Leenu volunteers. Anyway, later I go to her and ask her when she's going cause I'd like to go to. But I just get to when? She says hold on. I'm then talking to myself saying so and so came in, when I still have to follow up on another, etc, etc. So she's done. I basically repeat all the stuff I need to FU. She's like, "and why are you telling me this?" What did I say? I think I said... I didn't know... Didn't you say you were gonna go in a group? She's then like, I think we should go individually. But she was so snotty about it. Ew! Yeah, so that day, Leenu was her tag along buddy and she ditched her! She then said she'd miss me this AM. Whatever... Then Clinic. She's like it's such a waste of time if the intern then attending has to see a patient. I mean, I know there are like 4 of us, 1 intern and attending, but isn't 2 students seeing 1 patient a waste of time as well? Good God! Can't she do anything on her own?
Cathy came into clinic. Asked for volunteers to give PPD shots to employees. I actually wanted to, but not alone. No one answered. Eva thought it over... Want to volunteer? We have to make up for the fact that she caught us sleeping in the library. No we don't... Anyway, as she pointed out. It gives us a day off. Oh God... I hope it's not a low personage day... In that case, surgery first.
Then this AM, whilst tumor board on... Mixed Mullerian tumors was going on... So I hear it's supposed to snow. Dr. Daniels, pathologist was like I may be a little late, etc, etc. I thought then and there... I'm not staying for tumor board. I even say that during dinner, in front of Dr. Adams, the chief resident... He's like you shouldn't have said that, now I know. (Had I been Eva that statement would have freaked me out and made me stay the entire day...) Anyway, yeah, so I leave, only after Angelo tells me so. Start taking the snow off my car, etc, etc. I see Cathy get out of her car. Try to ignore... Try to ignore... How was your night call? Not bad... See you tomorrow. OMG... She probably knows the fact that I'm missing out on tumor board. If she had asked. What would I say? After the fact I thought of saying I just wanted to clean off my car. It hadn't started yet, which it hadn't... Good God... It's not like I'm not there every other day I have to be there, day in and day out.
Dinner convo. NB. I once thought of going into Neuro. Dr. Adams... Sorry, you can never walk again, but we can tell you where the cut is. Or, I'm sorry, Grandma had a stroke. But there's nothing we can do about it. Freaking hilarious! Never thought of that. But exactly... I just thought it was fun / challenging trying to figure out lesions. Then the really smart people... Go into rheumatology / dermatology... And the answer to everything is steroids. Lol. I mean, he's amusing and all, but at a point... Shut up. We seriously try to get out of the cafeteria before he shows up cause we'll just end up sitting there and listening to him while he eats.
Lol. So there is this patient. Post op. In the ICU. One night she codes like twice. Natalia was on call. Cute little Russian girl. Actually from... Kazakhstan and says it's more middle eastern than Russian... (In terms of weather.) Anyway, she had to like shock her. Dr. Adams kept asking her why did you shock her!?! Then he kept telling everyone. She kept saying cause the cardiologist was there telling her to shock her. Dr. Adams is then like, but she was awake! Natalia was like, I know! Dr. Adams then comments her face is burned in her memory and that Natalia is too afraid to go to her bedside now cause she'll remember. Later that day she codes again, no overhead page was made cause the cardiologist was there at time and did things on his own. She was in afib, a condition where you normally would shock. But someone pointed out... She's completely conscious. He's like oh... Give her some ativan. Anyway, long story short. This happened like Wednesday. I was on death watch on her and 2 other patients on Thurs. She was just extubated yesterday. Looks relatively good. Yet feels she's gonna die.
Did I ever write about this other guy? They're gonna do an M&M on him next week. Was to be last, which was at that time a morbidity... Now it's both I guess. Geeze... I don't even know his full Hx and he was my patient for a bit. Tsk tsk me. Anyway, I go to check on him, basically to see if he's still alive cause ICU patients we don't write notes on... We just follow up stuff. Anyway, so I peak into his little corner, some guy is there. I was with Eva that day... She does the same. I always assumed it was a relative, but she noticed he was an EMT, then noticed he had his name sewn into the jacket. Grandson? Lol. First thoughts... He's kinda cute. Later we use the buttroom. I get out, he's standing outside with one of the ICU nurses. I don't want to be standing around waiting for Eva there... Anyway, she comes out. I tell her that. No longer my type. To muscular. She's like that's so hot, etc, etc. She's like it's so bad to want the guy to live so she can see more of him. I kept joking. It's my patient! I get him first! But yeah... He died when I was post call.
Anything else to write about being on call?
Random surgery stuff...
GI doc. Is it so wrong to find him cute? I mean... Not to sound... religionist... But obviously Jewish. Yamaka and everything. Kinda geeky too. Glasses... Well he's a doc, so shirt and tie. Basically he's a geeky guy with a yamaka. Age... Youngish in terms of other attendings. Mid 30s? Anyway, one day he said hi to me... Only cause he took a seat I was standing next to and basically chit chatted with me about how he hopes he's not pushing me out, when in fact it's his way of pushing me out. I'm like let me just write this one thing and I'll leave. When I do he's like come back! I'm like no... I need a comp. Which I did. Lol. Anyway, yeah... Maybe I should do a GI elective. Hehe.
Ugh... So I check my email. I had a feeling this would happen... Freaking ObGyn got pushed to... Freaking July. Instead of like Jan. So I've got like 6 weeks off, which I need to fill. Then 3 months off after peds, when I hoped to take time off to study for step 2 / take it. I don't know how it works exactly... I mean, I always planned to do the 2007 match, but does my school still require me to graduate at a certain time. I think I'm scheduled to grad in Dec 06. But that would mean do everything no breaks. Then that would leave me with months off before residency, where I'd have to work cause they don't want you going in basically no clinical experience right prior to starting.
Slept at Michelle's. Lets not do that again. I mean, not that it was crazy like last, but... I just felt like we basically forced her to sleep. I mean, she was still talking on the phone after we were "asleep."
Another note before I move onto non"school" stuff... Obi asked me if my parents paid for my car. If I take out loans for school. He said I was spoiled. Jokingly of course, but I'm like saying it's not only me, a lot of Filipinos, even Indians are like that.
Went to Best Buy this AM. OMG... Freaking waste of 45 minutes of my life. Last time I had to ask about Project Runway. This week about Magnificent Seven. Then the thing was I wasn't the only one asking for stuff. So I was like last in line to ask this one lady in the section. I had asked others... That's not my section... Anyway, I eventually get to ask her, after waiting and just standing around, waiting... With a few other things I wanted to buy. Tommy, Shaun of the Dead and Sarah B... Look in catalog. We don't have it. Can you check the comp? We don't have it. Freaking waste of time! I ended up putting everything back and went to Tower Records where I spent a significant amount more for the same things, plus Mag 7. Freaking bastards. Then I'm gonna get all these best buy bucks post Christmas and have to spend them or they'll expire, on crap I could really care less about. Yeah... I hate best buy.
Later went to borders and bought a few more CDs. No JCS. Bright Lights, Big City with Patrick Wilson, Angels In America, this thing called Phantasia. Some sort of thing based off of POTO by JLW (Andrew's bro.) Carousel DVD. Gonna get JCS at some point. Maybe Sunday and wrap it all up for myself. Haha... And who thinks they're not spoiled/selfish?
Just some vids I want to remember...
Vid of some of the peeps from RENT. First up... What's with Wilson Jermaine Heredia's hair / ensemble... FYI, he plays Angel a gay / cross dressing guy. Second shocker... Girlfriend!?! And we're not talking fag hag here. Very convincing gay / drag queen. Not to sound... whatever it's called, but that fact that he was good at percussions kinda put him on the straighter than gay list. Even more impressed by the fact he can run / dance around in stripper heels.
Another Vid of when Les Mis surpassed A Chorus Line in performances. Freaking hilarious!
To end... Dream.
I was on top of a hill. With the sun as it's about the set, yet it was really bright, but the color of the sun was orange, not yellow... I was standing by someone else and Grandma in her wheel chair. For a long time, we're just looking down into this valley. At one point I turn to Grandma, start stroking her face. I begin to start crying and basically asking her over and over again why she left me.
Once again on call. When am I ever not on call... It's Adams, Shamof and Leenu. She seems OK. It's weird... It seems like I'm the once calling the shots instead of being the follower. She's quiet too, but not as much as me...
Anyway, what is there to say? Nothing crazy during the day. At least that I can think of. Just finished dinner with Dr. Adams... My God he likes to talk. He went on and on and on... Seriously, we were like there for maybe almost 3 hours. No one paged. I was praying for a page. Just to stop being there. I was cold, shivering yet trying not to so my muscles were tensing up... Then I'm zoning out cause I'm too tired. Yawning.
Yeah, I'm really sleepy... But I got to kill some time so my phone can charge at least a bit.
Today \ Now
First of all. One of the post call days. Something about being post call... Even when I've had a full night of sleep, I still have the urge to sleep.
Stuff I didn't write in last cause of paranoia...
Ugh... More of me hating Eva. So she's all like we should send someone to radiology instead of us going individually and pissing them off. She then asks her who will go with her. Leenu volunteers. Anyway, later I go to her and ask her when she's going cause I'd like to go to. But I just get to when? She says hold on. I'm then talking to myself saying so and so came in, when I still have to follow up on another, etc, etc. So she's done. I basically repeat all the stuff I need to FU. She's like, "and why are you telling me this?" What did I say? I think I said... I didn't know... Didn't you say you were gonna go in a group? She's then like, I think we should go individually. But she was so snotty about it. Ew! Yeah, so that day, Leenu was her tag along buddy and she ditched her! She then said she'd miss me this AM. Whatever... Then Clinic. She's like it's such a waste of time if the intern then attending has to see a patient. I mean, I know there are like 4 of us, 1 intern and attending, but isn't 2 students seeing 1 patient a waste of time as well? Good God! Can't she do anything on her own?
Cathy came into clinic. Asked for volunteers to give PPD shots to employees. I actually wanted to, but not alone. No one answered. Eva thought it over... Want to volunteer? We have to make up for the fact that she caught us sleeping in the library. No we don't... Anyway, as she pointed out. It gives us a day off. Oh God... I hope it's not a low personage day... In that case, surgery first.
Then this AM, whilst tumor board on... Mixed Mullerian tumors was going on... So I hear it's supposed to snow. Dr. Daniels, pathologist was like I may be a little late, etc, etc. I thought then and there... I'm not staying for tumor board. I even say that during dinner, in front of Dr. Adams, the chief resident... He's like you shouldn't have said that, now I know. (Had I been Eva that statement would have freaked me out and made me stay the entire day...) Anyway, yeah, so I leave, only after Angelo tells me so. Start taking the snow off my car, etc, etc. I see Cathy get out of her car. Try to ignore... Try to ignore... How was your night call? Not bad... See you tomorrow. OMG... She probably knows the fact that I'm missing out on tumor board. If she had asked. What would I say? After the fact I thought of saying I just wanted to clean off my car. It hadn't started yet, which it hadn't... Good God... It's not like I'm not there every other day I have to be there, day in and day out.
Dinner convo. NB. I once thought of going into Neuro. Dr. Adams... Sorry, you can never walk again, but we can tell you where the cut is. Or, I'm sorry, Grandma had a stroke. But there's nothing we can do about it. Freaking hilarious! Never thought of that. But exactly... I just thought it was fun / challenging trying to figure out lesions. Then the really smart people... Go into rheumatology / dermatology... And the answer to everything is steroids. Lol. I mean, he's amusing and all, but at a point... Shut up. We seriously try to get out of the cafeteria before he shows up cause we'll just end up sitting there and listening to him while he eats.
Lol. So there is this patient. Post op. In the ICU. One night she codes like twice. Natalia was on call. Cute little Russian girl. Actually from... Kazakhstan and says it's more middle eastern than Russian... (In terms of weather.) Anyway, she had to like shock her. Dr. Adams kept asking her why did you shock her!?! Then he kept telling everyone. She kept saying cause the cardiologist was there telling her to shock her. Dr. Adams is then like, but she was awake! Natalia was like, I know! Dr. Adams then comments her face is burned in her memory and that Natalia is too afraid to go to her bedside now cause she'll remember. Later that day she codes again, no overhead page was made cause the cardiologist was there at time and did things on his own. She was in afib, a condition where you normally would shock. But someone pointed out... She's completely conscious. He's like oh... Give her some ativan. Anyway, long story short. This happened like Wednesday. I was on death watch on her and 2 other patients on Thurs. She was just extubated yesterday. Looks relatively good. Yet feels she's gonna die.
Did I ever write about this other guy? They're gonna do an M&M on him next week. Was to be last, which was at that time a morbidity... Now it's both I guess. Geeze... I don't even know his full Hx and he was my patient for a bit. Tsk tsk me. Anyway, I go to check on him, basically to see if he's still alive cause ICU patients we don't write notes on... We just follow up stuff. Anyway, so I peak into his little corner, some guy is there. I was with Eva that day... She does the same. I always assumed it was a relative, but she noticed he was an EMT, then noticed he had his name sewn into the jacket. Grandson? Lol. First thoughts... He's kinda cute. Later we use the buttroom. I get out, he's standing outside with one of the ICU nurses. I don't want to be standing around waiting for Eva there... Anyway, she comes out. I tell her that. No longer my type. To muscular. She's like that's so hot, etc, etc. She's like it's so bad to want the guy to live so she can see more of him. I kept joking. It's my patient! I get him first! But yeah... He died when I was post call.
Anything else to write about being on call?
Random surgery stuff...
GI doc. Is it so wrong to find him cute? I mean... Not to sound... religionist... But obviously Jewish. Yamaka and everything. Kinda geeky too. Glasses... Well he's a doc, so shirt and tie. Basically he's a geeky guy with a yamaka. Age... Youngish in terms of other attendings. Mid 30s? Anyway, one day he said hi to me... Only cause he took a seat I was standing next to and basically chit chatted with me about how he hopes he's not pushing me out, when in fact it's his way of pushing me out. I'm like let me just write this one thing and I'll leave. When I do he's like come back! I'm like no... I need a comp. Which I did. Lol. Anyway, yeah... Maybe I should do a GI elective. Hehe.
Ugh... So I check my email. I had a feeling this would happen... Freaking ObGyn got pushed to... Freaking July. Instead of like Jan. So I've got like 6 weeks off, which I need to fill. Then 3 months off after peds, when I hoped to take time off to study for step 2 / take it. I don't know how it works exactly... I mean, I always planned to do the 2007 match, but does my school still require me to graduate at a certain time. I think I'm scheduled to grad in Dec 06. But that would mean do everything no breaks. Then that would leave me with months off before residency, where I'd have to work cause they don't want you going in basically no clinical experience right prior to starting.
Slept at Michelle's. Lets not do that again. I mean, not that it was crazy like last, but... I just felt like we basically forced her to sleep. I mean, she was still talking on the phone after we were "asleep."
Another note before I move onto non"school" stuff... Obi asked me if my parents paid for my car. If I take out loans for school. He said I was spoiled. Jokingly of course, but I'm like saying it's not only me, a lot of Filipinos, even Indians are like that.
Went to Best Buy this AM. OMG... Freaking waste of 45 minutes of my life. Last time I had to ask about Project Runway. This week about Magnificent Seven. Then the thing was I wasn't the only one asking for stuff. So I was like last in line to ask this one lady in the section. I had asked others... That's not my section... Anyway, I eventually get to ask her, after waiting and just standing around, waiting... With a few other things I wanted to buy. Tommy, Shaun of the Dead and Sarah B... Look in catalog. We don't have it. Can you check the comp? We don't have it. Freaking waste of time! I ended up putting everything back and went to Tower Records where I spent a significant amount more for the same things, plus Mag 7. Freaking bastards. Then I'm gonna get all these best buy bucks post Christmas and have to spend them or they'll expire, on crap I could really care less about. Yeah... I hate best buy.
Later went to borders and bought a few more CDs. No JCS. Bright Lights, Big City with Patrick Wilson, Angels In America, this thing called Phantasia. Some sort of thing based off of POTO by JLW (Andrew's bro.) Carousel DVD. Gonna get JCS at some point. Maybe Sunday and wrap it all up for myself. Haha... And who thinks they're not spoiled/selfish?
Just some vids I want to remember...
Vid of some of the peeps from RENT. First up... What's with Wilson Jermaine Heredia's hair / ensemble... FYI, he plays Angel a gay / cross dressing guy. Second shocker... Girlfriend!?! And we're not talking fag hag here. Very convincing gay / drag queen. Not to sound... whatever it's called, but that fact that he was good at percussions kinda put him on the straighter than gay list. Even more impressed by the fact he can run / dance around in stripper heels.
Another Vid of when Les Mis surpassed A Chorus Line in performances. Freaking hilarious!
To end... Dream.
I was on top of a hill. With the sun as it's about the set, yet it was really bright, but the color of the sun was orange, not yellow... I was standing by someone else and Grandma in her wheel chair. For a long time, we're just looking down into this valley. At one point I turn to Grandma, start stroking her face. I begin to start crying and basically asking her over and over again why she left me.