I dreamed about my priest...
But first! Mom and I didn't end up going to the wake last night. As I said, I didn't want to drive an hour there, to have Mom say she knows no one then leave after a few mins. Anyway, so I tried to sleep early. I went up before 9, but then 7500centfish and kumquatqueen were texting me about Mom's phone. It wasn't working. (They tried to switch her back to verizon). So I went to sleep... Well after I "pee pee, wash my face, pray". I needed to wake up early to pick 7500centfish up from the train station. Mom then came into my room at 3AM asking when the train was... 3:50! I got in a few more minutes before I got up. I went out without putting pants on. I was in leggings and threw on a sweatshirt. Picked up 7500centfish with zit patches and zit cream on my face! HAHAHAHa!!! I went to plug in my GPS, but then Mom was like, "why do you need that? If you know where you are going?" I then almost missed my turn like 2 times. Anyway... I was able to get more sleep and woke up at 7ish? Started my prayers, but then had a potty emergency so I finished praying after my shower / in the car.
Maybe I'll get to my dream now? I was half awake, because I felt like I was running the schedule through my mind on when to wake up, but then I felt like we were leaving for a trip and not just picking up 7500centfish. I was then standing on the front lawn and the neighbors trimmed a tree and then was moving to trim another and I made a comment that I like the tree they had trimmed, but then trimming it cause if to change color and it was no longer appealing. I was then in the house and we were having some sort of house party. Mom was sitting on her chair. 7500centfish was there, but I'm not sure what she was doing other than that... The aunts were surrounding the table. Fr. I was there talking about Christmas celebrations in Romania. Doing some weird arm movement explaining something. Later he makes a comment pointing to me / talking to the Aunts. He says, "You better get her a house where she can read her bible all day." I was then confused by the statement so I approach him and he tells me, "It's all about vocation." Saying I need to be serious and he like kinda gathers the family around intending to tell them my intentions. But then I became semi awake thinking... I don't even know how to progress! I already met with the Vicar of Religious, I still don't have a spiritual director, I have anxiety at the thought of volunteering for my parish, etc, etc. Ugh...
Went to the Funeral Mass. It was in Queens. Before Mass started the "2nd Daughter" (it legit said that in the hand out) eulogized her. I guess she had some sort of leukemia. She mentioned she was her bone marrow donor. She only really broke down when she talked of her son's pain. :'( The gospel was the Epiphany reading. I thought it was "funny" because of the star, but he talked of the gifts of the wise men and she bringing her gift to God. Interesting use of incense... Like he didn't just go around it incensing, swinging the thurible in big swings, but he like made mini swings over and over the casket, slowly going around. He then sang the Regina caeli. Oh yeah, per Mom they were married in that church. But Mom says she was not invited, neither Dad. But Dad was like... His room mate? And he was at my parent's wedding. I'm guessing it's just a lapse in her memory. We made our way separately to the cemetery. We arrived way before the hearse. Tagged along with some Filipinos we spotted. We eventually followed to the chapel. I spotted a Filipino family that goes to our church. Me and the father made eye contact. So weird... We said hi to Vic and left to meet Queens. Well first...
Visited Dad. Then found the mausoleum she will be interred in. It's nice! Why isn't ours that nice??? Like they had a huge statue of Christ the king, a fancy nativity, a giant statue of Mary. Bougie! We then went to find Tito Nic. He's like straight in front of the intersection / statue.
I've been thinking... Who asides 7500centfish should I make my wishes known? 7500centfish said Angelo. Or Alex... I mean, Angelo is the oldest and... He seems to be more open to the faith. I mean... He's still young and I might not die for another 20 years or more... (I'm too young and too thin to be on all my medications / have this many health issues. I'm probably gonna die young.) So I hope he's more mature, they are more mature... In life, in the faith. I mean... I have a rough sketch of my wants. Needs? I don't need a wake... But at the same time. If it's what they need then fine. I mean... If anything if you need it to make money off me, go for it. But like I have no friends. As I've said, I have a fear I will die alone. So... Will my family even care? I mean... It's nothing about them, just... I see me isolating myself, not them not reaching out. I have my cubby hole. Which is paid for. I have to set aside money... There are costs for opening / burial, etc. I hope I'll have someone to call a priest when the time comes. Viaticum, Apostolic pardon. I need a funeral Mass, at St. E... I need Masses said for me at least yearly. And as I've said... I can make my wishes known all I want, but do they understand them to carry them out? *sigh*
Ate at Longhorn.
They needed to stop by the house before going back home, otherwise I would have gone to the pharmacy. I went after they left because... 7500centfish needs to leave right after church. So if anything I can grab breakfast and eat it later. I don't want to have to drive all the way back nor go out later, so I went today. As I passed the church, I saw Fr. I sitting in the confessional. Lol. Mom then asked where I had gone. "To the pharmacy!" We had talked about me going before I left... She said had she known she would have told me to buy hair dye for her. They don't have cashiers at CVS... Actually some guy was helping an older guy at the self check out. That gonna be me. Lol...
I don't even know what video it was, something from Drew Drunil. At least the vids I've seen he comments on various geography memes / maps. But there was one where from bumper stickers you can tell a lot about a person. Obv from the license plate you can get their name / address. Personalized plates are easier to remember. But then if you have your children actives. 1. You have children. 2. You are busy nights and weekends / often away from home. Recreation stickers, or... My other car is some luxury item. You have money, etc. I was thinking with my car... Aside from my personalize plate... What can you get from me being a Mets fan? It's not uncommon. My HH... OK, maybe I have a "vacation home"? My British flag, that I'm British? Which would be wrong. Uh... Not sure what you can get or what you can do with the fact I'm Catholic. Maybe someone would key my car? Slash my tires if they disagree?
For future reference. And this.
Maybe I'll get to my dream now? I was half awake, because I felt like I was running the schedule through my mind on when to wake up, but then I felt like we were leaving for a trip and not just picking up 7500centfish. I was then standing on the front lawn and the neighbors trimmed a tree and then was moving to trim another and I made a comment that I like the tree they had trimmed, but then trimming it cause if to change color and it was no longer appealing. I was then in the house and we were having some sort of house party. Mom was sitting on her chair. 7500centfish was there, but I'm not sure what she was doing other than that... The aunts were surrounding the table. Fr. I was there talking about Christmas celebrations in Romania. Doing some weird arm movement explaining something. Later he makes a comment pointing to me / talking to the Aunts. He says, "You better get her a house where she can read her bible all day." I was then confused by the statement so I approach him and he tells me, "It's all about vocation." Saying I need to be serious and he like kinda gathers the family around intending to tell them my intentions. But then I became semi awake thinking... I don't even know how to progress! I already met with the Vicar of Religious, I still don't have a spiritual director, I have anxiety at the thought of volunteering for my parish, etc, etc. Ugh...
Went to the Funeral Mass. It was in Queens. Before Mass started the "2nd Daughter" (it legit said that in the hand out) eulogized her. I guess she had some sort of leukemia. She mentioned she was her bone marrow donor. She only really broke down when she talked of her son's pain. :'( The gospel was the Epiphany reading. I thought it was "funny" because of the star, but he talked of the gifts of the wise men and she bringing her gift to God. Interesting use of incense... Like he didn't just go around it incensing, swinging the thurible in big swings, but he like made mini swings over and over the casket, slowly going around. He then sang the Regina caeli. Oh yeah, per Mom they were married in that church. But Mom says she was not invited, neither Dad. But Dad was like... His room mate? And he was at my parent's wedding. I'm guessing it's just a lapse in her memory. We made our way separately to the cemetery. We arrived way before the hearse. Tagged along with some Filipinos we spotted. We eventually followed to the chapel. I spotted a Filipino family that goes to our church. Me and the father made eye contact. So weird... We said hi to Vic and left to meet Queens. Well first...
Visited Dad. Then found the mausoleum she will be interred in. It's nice! Why isn't ours that nice??? Like they had a huge statue of Christ the king, a fancy nativity, a giant statue of Mary. Bougie! We then went to find Tito Nic. He's like straight in front of the intersection / statue.
I've been thinking... Who asides 7500centfish should I make my wishes known? 7500centfish said Angelo. Or Alex... I mean, Angelo is the oldest and... He seems to be more open to the faith. I mean... He's still young and I might not die for another 20 years or more... (I'm too young and too thin to be on all my medications / have this many health issues. I'm probably gonna die young.) So I hope he's more mature, they are more mature... In life, in the faith. I mean... I have a rough sketch of my wants. Needs? I don't need a wake... But at the same time. If it's what they need then fine. I mean... If anything if you need it to make money off me, go for it. But like I have no friends. As I've said, I have a fear I will die alone. So... Will my family even care? I mean... It's nothing about them, just... I see me isolating myself, not them not reaching out. I have my cubby hole. Which is paid for. I have to set aside money... There are costs for opening / burial, etc. I hope I'll have someone to call a priest when the time comes. Viaticum, Apostolic pardon. I need a funeral Mass, at St. E... I need Masses said for me at least yearly. And as I've said... I can make my wishes known all I want, but do they understand them to carry them out? *sigh*
Ate at Longhorn.
They needed to stop by the house before going back home, otherwise I would have gone to the pharmacy. I went after they left because... 7500centfish needs to leave right after church. So if anything I can grab breakfast and eat it later. I don't want to have to drive all the way back nor go out later, so I went today. As I passed the church, I saw Fr. I sitting in the confessional. Lol. Mom then asked where I had gone. "To the pharmacy!" We had talked about me going before I left... She said had she known she would have told me to buy hair dye for her. They don't have cashiers at CVS... Actually some guy was helping an older guy at the self check out. That gonna be me. Lol...
I don't even know what video it was, something from Drew Drunil. At least the vids I've seen he comments on various geography memes / maps. But there was one where from bumper stickers you can tell a lot about a person. Obv from the license plate you can get their name / address. Personalized plates are easier to remember. But then if you have your children actives. 1. You have children. 2. You are busy nights and weekends / often away from home. Recreation stickers, or... My other car is some luxury item. You have money, etc. I was thinking with my car... Aside from my personalize plate... What can you get from me being a Mets fan? It's not uncommon. My HH... OK, maybe I have a "vacation home"? My British flag, that I'm British? Which would be wrong. Uh... Not sure what you can get or what you can do with the fact I'm Catholic. Maybe someone would key my car? Slash my tires if they disagree?
For future reference. And this.