Good People...
Once again, I cant stand to read my own entries. So I delete them.
Well, I am sure I will leave this entry up for a week and then delete it, because I think it is stupid. Here goes nothing. There are not too many good people in the world. I know five to ten actual good people. Heres one thing though. I don't think I am a good person. Actually, I know I am not a good person. I cut people down, then I laugh about it. Not just people I dont know. I do this to my friends. I am mean to people because I dont have any better qualities. I am just nice if I dont make people laugh. No one wants to be around someone who is just nice. They want to be around people that are fun. I know this because people tell me. They hang out with me because I am fun. I just want to live up to those standards. I am afraid that if I was just nice to people they would leave me because they would think I was boring. I dont ever know what to do. I usually dont care what people think of me. I just hope more then everything in the world that it is good. Only few matter to me. Those few mean everything to the world. I just want them to like me. I never settle. So I will never stop trying. If I did not make jokes and make people laugh, I am not that funny anyway... but I think I would be like that microsoft sam vioce. No one wants to hang out with microsoft sam. I feel that way about myself.
Well, I am sure I will leave this entry up for a week and then delete it, because I think it is stupid. Here goes nothing. There are not too many good people in the world. I know five to ten actual good people. Heres one thing though. I don't think I am a good person. Actually, I know I am not a good person. I cut people down, then I laugh about it. Not just people I dont know. I do this to my friends. I am mean to people because I dont have any better qualities. I am just nice if I dont make people laugh. No one wants to be around someone who is just nice. They want to be around people that are fun. I know this because people tell me. They hang out with me because I am fun. I just want to live up to those standards. I am afraid that if I was just nice to people they would leave me because they would think I was boring. I dont ever know what to do. I usually dont care what people think of me. I just hope more then everything in the world that it is good. Only few matter to me. Those few mean everything to the world. I just want them to like me. I never settle. So I will never stop trying. If I did not make jokes and make people laugh, I am not that funny anyway... but I think I would be like that microsoft sam vioce. No one wants to hang out with microsoft sam. I feel that way about myself.