Don't waste my time!
Well, I had a really good day today. I don't know why. I just did. Today was just fun. Nothing really got on my nerves. I am glad tha I feel better in comparison to yesterday. I wanted to beat some people up. That is crazy for me. I wanted to get violent though. Thats when I have been pushed. It takes a lot to due that to me. Well, there is so much shit that has gone wrong that I don't even know what to do anymore. I am just going to sit back and watch everything fall apart. When it has I will simply walkaway laughing.
After I got home last night, I was just so pissed that I actually called someone. I am sorry Steve. I am sure you had work to do, and I did not let you off the phone till about midnight. I enjoyed it though. Just someone tells me something that makes me reconsider who I really know. It just blows my mind to hear when people talk about me. Especially to people I don't even really know. I just can't explain how mad that made me. I was ready to smash some mailboxes. That is pretty bad for the way I am.
I have decided to just shut myself off to people. Not so much as in having fun. I mean I wont talk about the important stuff that bothers me. I am just going to have fun. I am also going to stop sucking up to people that really are not worth the time anyway.
I want to jus go on a date with a girl I find attractive. It has been like three years and I am just sitting back watching people play the game when I am a decent player myself. Screw a crush, I am sixteen and I want to have fun. I will too. I am going on a date. I am setting a deadline, two weeks. I was thinking I would take a girl out for some chinese this Thursday, just because it would work out. I still have to fine tune some details. I want to make it a double date;) I don't even care if anything comes out of it. I just want to do it, So I could say I gave it a shot. It is not like it wont be fun. I just hope it works out!
I just don't care anymore. I realized that I am the only one that really cared about things, and I guess I was wrong to invest time in people. I got walked all over on a daily bases. I am not doing things just to be nice to people. I am not doing things for people just so they will like me either. I am done with it! People will just suck all the life out of you untill there is nothing left. THere are a few that are there to help you, you need to realize who they are and treat them like they deserve.
Now, on the other hand... I really think people enjoy pissing me off. It must be fun to get me all worked up and wanting to kill people. I mean it has happened so many times this week. I am so upset I hold grudges the way I do. Let me say this!! This goes to people that don't know how I am feeling about you right now!!! I am probably pissed. I can't stand it when people do not appreciate things others do for them. Especially when it is mr doing it for them!!! There are two main people. One is a little iffy, if people think they can get away with being ass holes to me, they have another thing coming! People do things for reasons, and I don't know what the hell some people are thinking!
Well, to all the other friends I have out there, I love you all!!! Especially lunch people!! You all know who you are!!
Christine made me feel awesome today! Thanks, I love you Christine! No one has ever said something that nice to me. I want to leave another list of people I absolutly love lately, Lauren, Beth, Ashley, Sadie, Kylie, Nicole. You guys always make my day better!!
After I got home last night, I was just so pissed that I actually called someone. I am sorry Steve. I am sure you had work to do, and I did not let you off the phone till about midnight. I enjoyed it though. Just someone tells me something that makes me reconsider who I really know. It just blows my mind to hear when people talk about me. Especially to people I don't even really know. I just can't explain how mad that made me. I was ready to smash some mailboxes. That is pretty bad for the way I am.
I have decided to just shut myself off to people. Not so much as in having fun. I mean I wont talk about the important stuff that bothers me. I am just going to have fun. I am also going to stop sucking up to people that really are not worth the time anyway.
I want to jus go on a date with a girl I find attractive. It has been like three years and I am just sitting back watching people play the game when I am a decent player myself. Screw a crush, I am sixteen and I want to have fun. I will too. I am going on a date. I am setting a deadline, two weeks. I was thinking I would take a girl out for some chinese this Thursday, just because it would work out. I still have to fine tune some details. I want to make it a double date;) I don't even care if anything comes out of it. I just want to do it, So I could say I gave it a shot. It is not like it wont be fun. I just hope it works out!
I just don't care anymore. I realized that I am the only one that really cared about things, and I guess I was wrong to invest time in people. I got walked all over on a daily bases. I am not doing things just to be nice to people. I am not doing things for people just so they will like me either. I am done with it! People will just suck all the life out of you untill there is nothing left. THere are a few that are there to help you, you need to realize who they are and treat them like they deserve.
Now, on the other hand... I really think people enjoy pissing me off. It must be fun to get me all worked up and wanting to kill people. I mean it has happened so many times this week. I am so upset I hold grudges the way I do. Let me say this!! This goes to people that don't know how I am feeling about you right now!!! I am probably pissed. I can't stand it when people do not appreciate things others do for them. Especially when it is mr doing it for them!!! There are two main people. One is a little iffy, if people think they can get away with being ass holes to me, they have another thing coming! People do things for reasons, and I don't know what the hell some people are thinking!
Well, to all the other friends I have out there, I love you all!!! Especially lunch people!! You all know who you are!!
Christine made me feel awesome today! Thanks, I love you Christine! No one has ever said something that nice to me. I want to leave another list of people I absolutly love lately, Lauren, Beth, Ashley, Sadie, Kylie, Nicole. You guys always make my day better!!