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[one_of_the_kind]

I’m alone. This feels so weird. I hate being alone. But now I am. And yes, I do know that saying that I’m alone is unfair to Giles and Spike and other Scoobies, but I do feel alone. And can you really blame me? I mean... I lost my mom, I lost my sister and I doubt my father even cares that I exist. Of course the existence is bit weird taking the

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[buffys_bitch]

I start awake and almost launch a punch at who's got hold of me, but at the last second I realise it's the niblet and drop my fist.

"So, finally she shows." I grunt, and sit up with a wry grin playing on my face. "What am I chopped liver? We had a date didn't we? Some sparring, a spot of Passions and maybe, if you are lucky, we can play gin runny or something."

I shake my head groggily then look around.

"Where'd Tara go? She off already with Willow and the gang? I'd love to know what's so important that can't involve the likes of me or you. Guess we ain't the chosen ones after all. Not that I'm complaining about the company, mind."

I reach into my pocket, and put a fag to my lips. I'm about to light it when I see Dawn make that face. I shove the thing back in my pocket with a scowl.

"So, you up for some weapons training?"

[one_of_the_kind]

The Chosen ones. Well, I would say we're freakin' more than chosen... right, not the point... But Spike's got a point, where did Tara and the rest go? And of course again didn't let me go with them. It's not like I'm complaining that I need to stay with Spike, I like staying with Spike, it's a lot cooler than with other Scoobies... well, maybe except Anya, cos I think it's cool how she talks about sex all the time... Anyway, this has been a long week and all the time as I've got in the room everyone just shuts up and pretends they have never spoken. Damn! I'm a slayer now, shouldn't I like know things too, now

[buffys_bitch]

"We train so that we can keep you alive. It's no joke Dawn." I snap a little harshly. Don't know why I did, but for a second I'd felt my unbeating heart clench insie my chest, like I was seeing her atop that tower again. Helpless and bleeding.

I hadn't been able to save her that time, hadn't been able to keep my promise Buffy to protect her. So now I was determined to make sure she could save herself.

I look down at the floor for a moment, and then in a calmer tone I try again.

"No, we don't have to train right now. But we will later. Buffy wasn't a quitter and neither are you. Just humour me, ok? So, what movies have you got..." I stand up and make a move for the VCR.

[one_of_the_kind]

I twitch twice. First as he snaps at me and then at mention of Buffy's name. Somehow I think it burns him as much as it does to me. And he says I'm not a quitter, huh? Well, what then I am if I let my sister die for something I've done? I say it pretty much goes under the category 'quitter'...

"Right, lets train later." I repeat slowly not to get snapped again. I know I need to train. I know it will help me stay a live little longer... just sometimes I doubt I want to stay a live little longer or at all. But I can't tell that to Spike. He already feels bad. I wonder if he even would be here, if not that promise of taking care of me... but I don't ask. I won't. Instead I grin.

"Well, I got 'Lara Croft'! I haven't seen it, but Janice said it's cool." Yeah, about a fighter woman with big boobs... well, we have the fighting thing in common at least...

[buffys_bitch]

"Tombraider? With that bird with the big...guns and martial arts moves?" Good one Spike, mention breasts to a teenage girl while you're at it.

"Um, yeah, sounds good. It's got fighting, and explosions and stuff. Probably counts as a training movie. Plus, she's got that whole kickass chick thing going on, right?" I give Dawn the thumbs up, trying to make up for being shirty before. After a bit of searching I find the vid and shove it in.

"Hey, I bet you'll be wanting snacks with this. Isn't that what you lot do when you watch movies? Popcorn, soda, 'smores...." I wonder if we should raid the kitchen. Not that there'll be anything there for me unless someone keeps A neg in the fridge. Not hardly likely.

[one_of_the_kind]

Training movie? See!? I said he's helluva cooler than Scoobies! Not even talking about Giles. I mean, can you imagine Giles training Buffy with Tomb raider movies? Heh, nope. I like this better than how Giles trained Buffy, I mean... ok, let's not think about Buffy, Dawn. Be happy. Sad thoughts about sister dying won't help...

"Yeah, snacks would be cool. I even think that we have some blood too..." I stand up and walk in the kitchen. "Stupid-Bot got some, I think she has a crush on you..." Yeah, I hate calling that thing Buffy-Bot and I think that the possibility of her having a crush on Spike is pretty big... I mean, she was created to please him, right? Can I just say 'ewww'?

[buffys_bitch]

"The bot got me blood?" I perk up at the thought of something tasty to drink but part of me hates that it was the bot who got it for me. "She's not out and about is she? Not really in the mood to deal with her - it." I have to keep reminding myself, it's just a machine, a lifeless simulcra of Buffy. Not her.

I saunter into the kitchen and begin to load up on items that might please Dawn. Biscuits, a bag of crisps....I open the fridge and grab a six pack of cola's. And there it is, a plastic bag of the ruby red. I grab that too and head back to the lounge. I toss the edibles to her and rip into the edge of the blood bag. Dawn scowls at me pretty fierce then, so I go back and find a stupid mug to pour it into.

[one_of_the_kind]

"The Bot's out. Trying to slay something, I suppose..." Or I hope so, cos she has spent so much time with Anya lately that she could be trying to find something to lay too... and again I go with the 'ewww'!

I watch Spike getting back with the blood in a mug, and hey! That is my favorite mug with Care Bears! And now it's all bloody! I won't be able to ever drink milk from it anymore! Yuck!

"You are SO buying me a new mug, mister!" I point a finger at him as I open my cola.

[buffys_bitch]

"Alright, pet. No need to get your knickers all in a twist." I slouch over to the sofa and plonk myself down.

"Right-o, movie time." I search around for the remote then see that Dawn already as it and is pushing play.

As I sit there mug of blood in hand, watching the video unfold, it strikes me again how odd it feels. To be sitting in the Summer's home, doing something as ordinary as passing the time with Dawn.

I was never this welcome before she ...died.

I feel the sudden need for something stronger than blood. Tears prick at my eyelids again and I turn away, clenching my jaw.

Will I never stop thinking about her?

[one_of_the_kind]

Wow! This movie is really... dull. Well, ok, it got pretty people and cool fighting and extremely pretty pictures... but still! It's about fighting and... hey! That SO is not possible! I should know... I tried it. And then Spike tried it. And it was hard to get Giles not to try it. It's impossible, Miss Lara Croft!

I so should have chosen some romantic shit. Yeah. And then we could both be sad. Me because Buffy loved those movies and Spike because... well, ok, Spike I think because he would need to watch them. Though, ok, he might enjoy it, I mean, he is watching Passions. How sad is that?

[lil_ripper]

I was approaching the steps of the Summer's house when I thought I heard loud gunshots coming from within. Without thinking I burst through the front door.

"Dawn! Willow? Are you hurt? What's -" I paused in my tracks when I spied Spike and Dawn sitting calmly in the living room, some mindless action movie on the television in front of them.

They exchanged a look that I can only describe as a rolling eye motion. I relaxed my stance and then with an embarrassed air, I moved to join them.

"Err, that's rather loud you know, I-I thought there was some kind of commotion..." There was no way to salvage my dignity, so I gave up. "What's this you are watching? More mindless pap? You should be training. Where are the others?"

[one_of_the_kind]

"Well, this is training at some point, right? I mean, she's gotta kick!" Well, ok, half of the things that chik does no one can do, but Giles can't prove that... well, except if he asks me to do it, but I doubt it. Why would Giles want me to drive with motorbike, right? Right!

"And others? Well, we don't know." I roll my eyes. "We weren't "invited"," as I say that I make air quotes. But we weren't invited! That is not exactly friendly, now is it? Ahh, well, I doubt they're having more fun then we are... I bet they don't even have cola! At least I hope so...