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So Spike decided on taking a nap while waiting for Dawn and truth? I couldn’t be happier about that. He napping means I don’t need to talk with him and that is good, because I can not stand lying to Spike. Well, ok, I know it’s not exactly lying, because I just am not telling all, but for me it still feels like lying. And I hate that. I can’t understand how Willow can do this all the time. But soon we will need to come clean and somehow I’m afraid of that even more.
I had one more black out today. Right as I left Spike to clean the kitchen, I zoomed out again. Back to nothing. It scares me. But I am afraid to tell it to anyone. At least not now. Everyone has their own problems; Willow has her hands full with bringing Buffy back, Anya and Xander both are slowly starting to get the fact that they will get married, Spike and Giles has to take care of Dawnie’s trainings. No one has time to deal with my problems, and I’m not even asking. And I won’t. As long as I can go with out asking for help.
Now I need to go and meet Willow, Xander and Anya in the cemetery. Because we’re bringing Buffy back. And even if I don’t think this is a good idea, I will help, because Willow has done so much for me. I own her.
“D-Dawn, Spike i-is here a-and I’m leaving!” I call out before walking out of the house. I look at it before starting to walk to the cemetery. There will be so many changes when we get Buffy back. And I am not sure if those changes will be any good.
I had one more black out today. Right as I left Spike to clean the kitchen, I zoomed out again. Back to nothing. It scares me. But I am afraid to tell it to anyone. At least not now. Everyone has their own problems; Willow has her hands full with bringing Buffy back, Anya and Xander both are slowly starting to get the fact that they will get married, Spike and Giles has to take care of Dawnie’s trainings. No one has time to deal with my problems, and I’m not even asking. And I won’t. As long as I can go with out asking for help.
Now I need to go and meet Willow, Xander and Anya in the cemetery. Because we’re bringing Buffy back. And even if I don’t think this is a good idea, I will help, because Willow has done so much for me. I own her.
“D-Dawn, Spike i-is here a-and I’m leaving!” I call out before walking out of the house. I look at it before starting to walk to the cemetery. There will be so many changes when we get Buffy back. And I am not sure if those changes will be any good.