alone with out you drifting into madness and cries out loud
I hate my sister right now ....i hate this world ...how people can be so cruel and how you can be blamed for the fucked up shit other people do...The way that people are so unkind and hateful.
The way I am...the way everyone Is no matter how much it fucken is wrong...I write this with my tears...flowing and the pounding of my fucking head...why cant this just stop why does it have to go on....my oppinions change with every minute that passes ...Abe I need you now I need you here with me but this fucked up world holds us away Away from our love and away from happiness ..bleeds us dry till we are shrivaled into nothing ...until our hearts pump needles piercing our emotions Im going to fly now Im going away ...where I can atleast see you but you cant see me...I want to be selfish so...and your heart stops me ...even as your stabbed through the heart and you lay here dying in front of me ....I cant take the pain away I wont because you will leave along with my pain....your the consequence....FUCK I dont know what Im doing im screaming to myself screamming selfish ....this isnt poetry its my THOUGHTS they arent poetry they are fury and pain thats my life so much HAte in me when all i want to do is LOve and this world wont let me., please I want to die ...I want to die with you so we are gone from eferyone just me and you.....Its so fucking confusing everything is stirred in my head I am going crazy....I want to be with you and hold you near me i want to feel the comfort of your touch your eyes looking into me I gave you my heart and that is all thats left of me....
I dont want to put this on you....I know you have yours but I have no choice ..noone else will hear me...and I love you for this ....dont worry I havent fallen yet Im holding on with my feet dangling but I care so much more than I think anyone else does....maybe not because I know of no one you know except for your hateful mother and claudia...does she care for you as I do??? I hope she does because thats one more person to carry you through...
my father wants to cause me even more pain....he doesnt understand...He wants to take our communication away...he will be doing it soon....
your here now and just seeing your name ... the throbbing of my head soothes...
The way I am...the way everyone Is no matter how much it fucken is wrong...I write this with my tears...flowing and the pounding of my fucking head...why cant this just stop why does it have to go on....my oppinions change with every minute that passes ...Abe I need you now I need you here with me but this fucked up world holds us away Away from our love and away from happiness ..bleeds us dry till we are shrivaled into nothing ...until our hearts pump needles piercing our emotions Im going to fly now Im going away ...where I can atleast see you but you cant see me...I want to be selfish so...and your heart stops me ...even as your stabbed through the heart and you lay here dying in front of me ....I cant take the pain away I wont because you will leave along with my pain....your the consequence....FUCK I dont know what Im doing im screaming to myself screamming selfish ....this isnt poetry its my THOUGHTS they arent poetry they are fury and pain thats my life so much HAte in me when all i want to do is LOve and this world wont let me., please I want to die ...I want to die with you so we are gone from eferyone just me and you.....Its so fucking confusing everything is stirred in my head I am going crazy....I want to be with you and hold you near me i want to feel the comfort of your touch your eyes looking into me I gave you my heart and that is all thats left of me....
I dont want to put this on you....I know you have yours but I have no choice ..noone else will hear me...and I love you for this ....dont worry I havent fallen yet Im holding on with my feet dangling but I care so much more than I think anyone else does....maybe not because I know of no one you know except for your hateful mother and claudia...does she care for you as I do??? I hope she does because thats one more person to carry you through...
my father wants to cause me even more pain....he doesnt understand...He wants to take our communication away...he will be doing it soon....
your here now and just seeing your name ... the throbbing of my head soothes...