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Here are some poems or just things I wrote.
Someday
I say
Someday
That I shall stay up till 12 staring at the stars
On a farm
With the one that means most to me
With his fingers intertwined with mine we'll lie.
Feeling the breeze
Enjoying the view
So incredibly in love
With the one that means the most to me
With his fingers intertwined with mine we'll lie.
Love
Love
Fast, Lasting
Loving, Smiling, Caring
Amazing shittiness
Hating, Crying, Jealousy
Incredible, Horrible
Want
Used to be.
I used to think it couldn't happen to me,
That love could never be.
But I know this love will lasy.
And crushes are thinks of the past.
When I look up.
I know theres nothing there for me.
I know that there won't ever be
Night lights. Date fights.
I walk in the night.
Trying to find the light.
I walk past the phone booth.
Trying think of any truth.
I walk and stop at the bakers shop.
I wish It all just would've stopped.
I keep walking by the light post.
I wanted him to want me most.
I walk into my house door.
Close it and fall to the floor.
I smell the smell of a pie.
Run upstairs and start to cry.
At the bakers shop he kissed me first.
Then he dumped me and my hear just burst.
Heartbreak
When I cry, I cry because I think that my tears will drown the pain that engulfs my heart. As the tears stream down my face they sew, they sew my heart, they sew it back together. They sew it so that I will have a full heart to be ripped and crumpled again by someone else. Ripped and crumpled; torn like paper. My heart shatters, the pain is the shards that are deep under my skin. Tears me up to think he didn't love me like I wanted him to. He held me, but it wasn't real. It was as real as the smile painted across my face so delicately. Everyone and Everything make it worse... They don't care they are also fake, like that same smile...
No trust
I talk to you tonight
While she's right there by your side.
You don't think to tell me.
You let that detail be.
You have to go home soon.
No feelings have been ruined.
She heard what I said, Brad.
She even got real mad.
She said I was a flirt .
She even called me dirt.
You keep too much from me;
That is just not what I need.
I know there is no trust.
You love isn't a must.
All this scheming.
No more believin'.
I talk to you tonight.
While she's right there by your side.
Hit that peak
Tears run down my cheek.
I think I've hit that peak.
Im dying inside,
And I cannot describe.
Matt is so far gone.
I got no1 to lean on.
I've lost everyone everything.
What is it that I did?
I feel so hopeless.
Feel so helpless.
Noones there for me.
Don't think there'll ever be.
Will you comfort me
Before I start to bleed?
I need a friend
To be there til the end
Why can't matt see
What he means to me?
Killing me inside.
Something I can't hide.
He was always there.
Needed him like air.
Tears run down my cheek.
I think I've hit that peak.
Come undone
I love you some much hun!
I think I've come undone..
Do you even care?
I am always there...
I want to be yours..
My love for you just pours..
These tears stream down my face..
This shit's hard to erase.
I love you more then words.
Why can I not be heard?
You mean so much to me..
Is it that hard to see?
I sit here without you..
Not knowing what to do...
I hope and wish and pray..
You'll love me all your days.
What can I say to you?
You know my love is true.
Is this all just a scheme?
Do you see me in your dreams?
So won't you wipe my tears?
Take away all my fears?
I want your love so bad..
Please don't leave me Brad..
I love you so much hun!
I think I've come undone...
Worst things in life.
The worst thing in life is not knowing.
He's not showing what I mean to him...
The worst thing in life is not caring.
I'm not daring to know what I mean to him...
The worst thing in life is not seeing.
Am I not being all that he wants of me?
The worst thing in life is wanting.
This shit is haunting all of my dreams of him...
The worst thing in life is crying.
I am soo dying not being in the arms of him...
The worst thing in life is not knowing.
He's not showing what I mean to him...