Yeah, I know. My bad.
...Alright, I know certain people are going to want to ignore this when they see this because they're rightfully still pissed at me right now, but just hear me out, okay?
Look, I know I said a lot of stupid things last week, and I know I've hurt a lot of feelings because of it and because of the way I've been behaving for quite a while now. I didn't...think it would bother any of you as much as it seems to have. You guys know I'm not big on talking about my problems. I always try to fix them on my own. It's what I've been doing since I was 12 and it's what's worked for me for so long. What I mean is... Hell, I'm not good at these kinds of things. I'd rather just kick them to the side and move on with stuff. Chin up and tough it out. That's what a man's supposed to do. Especially a man who comes from where we've all come from. ...But I know that doesn't always work with everything. Still...I don't know *how* to deal with things any other way. So...I've just been ignoring things and ignoring all of you because I didn't want to deal with it, and I *knew* you guys were going to bring it up and make me think when I didn't want to think. ...It was wrong of me to do that, though. I know that now.
...So I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for ignoring everyone and I'm sorry for being a jerk and upsetting you all. I'm sorry Kamio. I'm sorry An-san. I'm sorry Shinji. And I'm sorry to everyone in Fudoumine, because I know you've all been trying to talk to me and I've said nothing. ...And I'll understand if you all choose to stay angry with me because of it. But...I just wanted to apologize for things and try to air things out. And I'm willing to talk now if you're still willing to listen to me.
...Okay, that's all. Just needed to say that and get that weight off my shoulders.
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...Though if a certain other someone sees this, you might want to try doing the same. I shouldn't have suggested things to you that I couldn't do myself, but I'm doing it now and so should you. So go talk to your friends. They care about you and you're being as much of an idiot as I seem to be.
...Oh, and um, before I forget... Thanks for the sushi on Saturday, Kawamura. It was really great and I really appreciated it. And I know I wasn't in the best mood at the time, but it really was good to see you again~ We'll have to get together again when I'm feeling a little less...stressed. Maybe play tennis or something for old times' sake and see how your Hadoukyuu still holds up these days~
[OOC: Fudoumine can thank a 10 year old little girl for this next time they see her. Namari managed to talk some sense into her big brother and got him to agree to apologize to everyone for being a closed-off idiot "because it was interfering with her time in getting to see all her old Nii-chan-tachi and Nee-chan that she loves". ^^; I swear the kid really does have him wrapped around her little finger. >>; And Tetsu already honestly feeling guilty for things despite his constant efforts to say otherwise ultimately agreed to do it.]
Look, I know I said a lot of stupid things last week, and I know I've hurt a lot of feelings because of it and because of the way I've been behaving for quite a while now. I didn't...think it would bother any of you as much as it seems to have. You guys know I'm not big on talking about my problems. I always try to fix them on my own. It's what I've been doing since I was 12 and it's what's worked for me for so long. What I mean is... Hell, I'm not good at these kinds of things. I'd rather just kick them to the side and move on with stuff. Chin up and tough it out. That's what a man's supposed to do. Especially a man who comes from where we've all come from. ...But I know that doesn't always work with everything. Still...I don't know *how* to deal with things any other way. So...I've just been ignoring things and ignoring all of you because I didn't want to deal with it, and I *knew* you guys were going to bring it up and make me think when I didn't want to think. ...It was wrong of me to do that, though. I know that now.
...So I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for ignoring everyone and I'm sorry for being a jerk and upsetting you all. I'm sorry Kamio. I'm sorry An-san. I'm sorry Shinji. And I'm sorry to everyone in Fudoumine, because I know you've all been trying to talk to me and I've said nothing. ...And I'll understand if you all choose to stay angry with me because of it. But...I just wanted to apologize for things and try to air things out. And I'm willing to talk now if you're still willing to listen to me.
...Okay, that's all. Just needed to say that and get that weight off my shoulders.
...
...Though if a certain other someone sees this, you might want to try doing the same. I shouldn't have suggested things to you that I couldn't do myself, but I'm doing it now and so should you. So go talk to your friends. They care about you and you're being as much of an idiot as I seem to be.
...Oh, and um, before I forget... Thanks for the sushi on Saturday, Kawamura. It was really great and I really appreciated it. And I know I wasn't in the best mood at the time, but it really was good to see you again~ We'll have to get together again when I'm feeling a little less...stressed. Maybe play tennis or something for old times' sake and see how your Hadoukyuu still holds up these days~
[OOC: Fudoumine can thank a 10 year old little girl for this next time they see her. Namari managed to talk some sense into her big brother and got him to agree to apologize to everyone for being a closed-off idiot "because it was interfering with her time in getting to see all her old Nii-chan-tachi and Nee-chan that she loves". ^^; I swear the kid really does have him wrapped around her little finger. >>; And Tetsu already honestly feeling guilty for things despite his constant efforts to say otherwise ultimately agreed to do it.]