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[irockoldschool]

i never thought this before but i'm a really bad christian. and person in general. i'm so sick of being so fake, because honestly that is what i have become. i can't do anything right anymore, i see that now. life isn't worth it and i suck. even doing this, posting what i really feel online makes me wonder what i'm even doing. why do people even

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[godfirst]

Claire, I'm not gonna lie. I have the same problem.
I have a sincere desire to cover up all the crap in me.
In fact, it's less of a desire as it is a compulsion.

But I've realized the importance of realizing how crappy I am... and embracing it.
And to be honest, I really love it now, because it's so freeing.
I'm suddenly free to admit that I was wrong, that I am a screw up.
I don't feel the need to be perfect anymore... that I shouldn't screw up because I should somehow know better and somehow know what the best decision would be.
I guess then I'm just free to be real with people. I'm free to be a screw up.
And being ok with being a screw up, puts me in the correct relationship with God because I'm finally able to throw up my hand and tell Him I can't do this, because I'm a screw up!
It's made me realize that I really, really, truly can't be good on my own, in a way that isn't just regurgitating what every other christian says

[uncool_siggy]

man...everyone is full of crap.
and now I totally feel like crap because I'm pretty sure I had a hand in generating these feelings.
(Mary really knows what she's talking about up there btw)
I've been coming to these same realizations myself for like, ever. I mean, we'll never even be close to perfect as a society, and we can be at peace with that. I'm sorry if I made you feel judged, I was just working out some things in myself and in doing so, said some things I know I shouldn't have. You're one of the most wonderful people I know. You do love a lot more people than I do, you don't gossip, you don't cuss (or at least you do better than me)
so I'm not sure I"m making any sense anymore, but in conclusion, don't pay attention to me. You're wonderful, because you belong to Jesus. End of story.