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Happy Birthday to me... yeah right. Saturday was my birthday for any of you know didnt know or care and Kyley left me... yes, on my birthday. Some reasons i have figured out, some of which are legitimate and some of which are ridiculous. Then theres the stuff i still dont know or understand. It hurts really bad to know that ive lost her, i wish it wasnt like this, i really do. Im meeting her tomorrow to talk. It doesnt seem to be to promising, expecially after
XxtrendyXcorexX: ok, i love you.
Oceanryder: bye.
I told her id bring her flowers, but as i continue to think, i realized something. I dont need to bring her flowers, or a card, or a gift, or anything. Im me, i love her with all my heart and have always and will always do my best to help her in any way i can. Thats who i am, and if thats not enough... then im not enough. Shes going to have a simple choice to make in the next couple days... take me for who i am and stand by side and support me when things are tough, or find excuses to push away for fear of getting hurt herself. Ive made a couple mistakes, like shutting out her family. Ive never felt welcome around any of them and ive distanced myself because im uncomfortable. And being irresponsible, and doing things that ive always felt only affect me, but am recently realizing, dribble down and hurt her. And ive shown her that im willing to work on both. So my motive tomorrow will be simple, show her i love her and that im here for the long haul, but i am proud to be who i am, and if that person isnt good enough for her... then i guess it really is over.
XxtrendyXcorexX: ok, i love you.
Oceanryder: bye.
I told her id bring her flowers, but as i continue to think, i realized something. I dont need to bring her flowers, or a card, or a gift, or anything. Im me, i love her with all my heart and have always and will always do my best to help her in any way i can. Thats who i am, and if thats not enough... then im not enough. Shes going to have a simple choice to make in the next couple days... take me for who i am and stand by side and support me when things are tough, or find excuses to push away for fear of getting hurt herself. Ive made a couple mistakes, like shutting out her family. Ive never felt welcome around any of them and ive distanced myself because im uncomfortable. And being irresponsible, and doing things that ive always felt only affect me, but am recently realizing, dribble down and hurt her. And ive shown her that im willing to work on both. So my motive tomorrow will be simple, show her i love her and that im here for the long haul, but i am proud to be who i am, and if that person isnt good enough for her... then i guess it really is over.