Black Plague and other goodness

Mar 14, 2007 19:49

I'm sick. I've been sick for almost a week now.
My daughter is still sick. She gave me her evil virus. She's been sick far longer than I.
I was doing so well, not catching whatever the heck it is she has/had...
Then one night I leaned in to give her a kiss goodnight, and she was sleeping. She coughed IN MY MOUTH.

INSTANT typhoid mary.

So yeah.

In other news:

Work is going good. We're picking up business and we just hired a new barista. She's pretty cool.
Mike's still working his butt off at the Bellagio.
Caitlin's on break from school till the 18th.
My birthday is on the 27th and I'm /kinda/ excited. I'm turning 27. I'm not entirely sure what I want for my birthday, but I'm hoping that Mike has something cool planned. I don't want to put any pressure on him, and I don't think I have to. He already knows that I've had one birthday party my entire life. He also knows that my birthdays have always been blah. I'm not that easy to shop for because the things I want, aren't really material. I want sentimental things like time spent together, plans for the future to come true, sentimental gifts. I mean yeah, I like candles, I like tea, I like flowers and books... but I'm hoping he comes up with something cool, even if its just a real honest to God date. Maybe go see a show? Going to dinner and a show or a concert or something I dunno.
If not, then it's no big deal. I'm lucky to have him, a house over my head, and our daughter. That's all that really matters, right?

Turning 27. Oh wow. I know I'm not /old/. In the past I've whined about being so old... It's not that chronologically I feel old, it's the life that I've led that makes me feel old. I've been through a lot in the past 15 year and quite frankly, I feel like I'm settling in to my midlife years now. But thats okay. I'm okay with the approaching 30 now. Sure I'm nowhere near where I wanted to be at this age.. But I still have time to accomplish the things I want/need.

I still have time to get my degree.
I still have time to get married (or even just engaged).
I still have time to have another child (hopefully sooner rather the later).
I still have time to go to Ireland with my mom.
I still have time to make a career for myself.
God willing, I still have time for life.

As much as I miss my family and friend(s) back home... I have to look at my life now and what I do have.

I always said I wanted to live outside of Alaska at least once after high school and here I am, in Las Vegas, Nevada! I have a wonderful man in my life. The man I knew I was going to be with forever the first day I met him 10 years ago. Sure we had split for awhile, did our own things, grew up a little... but we found our way back to each other. And because of that we have an extremely strong bond that most people don't have. How often do you get a second chance at true love?

I'm apart of a second family now and for once in a relationship, they don't hate me or talk shit behind my back or try and destroy our relationship. I adore his family. I can't wait to get to know his family back home in Alaska better.

I have tons of opportunities here, and once I have the time and the resources to take advantage of them, I could really do something with my life. I didn't have that back home.

There is no Ex drama here. It's nice to be able to go to the store or walk down the street without constantly looking over my shoulder for spies.

Now don't get me wrong, I would move back home in a heart beat if we could... Having my family and mike's family and our friends close by is extremely important to me. I don't hate it here... But we could really use the love and support of our folks and friends back home right now. Especially where our daughter is concerned.

Mike worried that I would resent him for making me move here. I don't, not at all. I wanted to do it. I'm happy I did. I needed to get away from the mess back home as much as he needed to when he moved away. I'm better for it. I've grown a lot being here. I did it. I said I would and I did.
I love my life with Mike, ups and downs.
But if it were possible, I would move us back up there, get us a place in eagle river or anchorage and jobs in the city... Caitlin could get to spend time with her Aunts and Uncle, and her Grandparents... Mike and I could have a chance to be a real couple... We could both finish school if we wanted and we'd both have friends and be able to visit them regularly.
I could pick up a route and make 45 to 80G just delivering mail like my folks do.
It could be nice.
I wish there was a way to do it.

Anyway.

I'm zonked, I feel like POOOOOP and I need to lay back down. I just wanted to update since I've been absent from blogging for awhile.

See? I'm not dead.



That is my backyard....
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