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It's been awhile...
1: My new obsession... broadway music on internet radio. awesome.
2: Finished my Christmas shopping at 9:00 tonight. After shopping every day this week, I never want to step foot in another mall.
3: Losing power for 6 hours is not cool. It was off from about 4:30 to after 10:00 tonight. It was weird though. The main road was off, except for a few houses here and there. The road across from mine had one side on and the other side off, but the road next to it was completely off, the road next to me had the top half of the street off but the bottom half on, and the road behind that was on. And the other road had one side of the street on and the other half off. I know that they're probably on different grids, but the parts that were on made no sense compared to the ones that were off. Whatever, I have my power back, that's all I care about. I was going nuts here in the dark. I lit a candle and read a book (yes, you read that right... I actually picked up a book and read for fun). We went out to dinner, I dropped my parents off (their cars were stuck in the garage), went and bought my sister's Christmas present, drove around a little to waste time so I didnt have to sit in the dark, then decided to go over my sister's since she had power. As soon as I got there and got ready for bed my mother called to say the power was back on so I left.
4: My mother isnt talking to me. She's been a bitch since I got home last week. She yelled at me all day because I'm not working enough hours. It's not my fault that the place closes for Christmas and doesnt open again until after New Year's. I called several times this week but no one has answered the phone. I was told not to call Michele at home because she doesnt have the schedule there and to just tell the receptionist what days I want. Sure, that's fine... If the stupid receptionist would answer the phone. So my mother decided to try to take my car away from me. I pretty much laughed at her, reminding her that it wasnt just in her name and it's also in my name and I pay for a lot of that car. Yes, she doesnt take the money every month, but I have paid a good amount of it so far, so she has no right to take it from me. It's her own fault that I havent paid as much. She doesnt take the money out of my account every month like I tell her to. So I dont want to hear her bitching that I dont pay.
5: Can I move out of this house now? I dont like being here. I dont like constantly getting yelled at for no reason and being treated like a child. I feel like a stranger in my own house. I flat out dont want to be here. I dont feel like I should have to tell people where I'm going everytime I walk out the door or where I've been everytime I get home. It's really sad that I cant even take a shower without my mother knocking on the door to try to tell me something. And the same thing that happened to me over Thanksgiving happened again... I wake up and have no idea where I am. I just want to graduate and move the hell away from this place.
6: I was talking to someone the other night and they made me realize a lot of things. I do things to purposely put myself in a certain mood to get my mind off other things. I cant just accept things the way they are and let it be that way and let myself feel certain things. I have to do other things to make myself happy and content. I dont want to say too much here, but it really helped and I realized I can do certain things and feel certain things and it's ok. It also made me realize a lot of other things, which kind of scares me, but on the other hand it makes me very happy.
7: I havent been sleeping lately. It takes me forever to fall asleep and I wake up several times throughout the night. I know why, but there's nothing I can do about it.
Off to try to get some sleep... more later possibly.
Until next time...
1: My new obsession... broadway music on internet radio. awesome.
2: Finished my Christmas shopping at 9:00 tonight. After shopping every day this week, I never want to step foot in another mall.
3: Losing power for 6 hours is not cool. It was off from about 4:30 to after 10:00 tonight. It was weird though. The main road was off, except for a few houses here and there. The road across from mine had one side on and the other side off, but the road next to it was completely off, the road next to me had the top half of the street off but the bottom half on, and the road behind that was on. And the other road had one side of the street on and the other half off. I know that they're probably on different grids, but the parts that were on made no sense compared to the ones that were off. Whatever, I have my power back, that's all I care about. I was going nuts here in the dark. I lit a candle and read a book (yes, you read that right... I actually picked up a book and read for fun). We went out to dinner, I dropped my parents off (their cars were stuck in the garage), went and bought my sister's Christmas present, drove around a little to waste time so I didnt have to sit in the dark, then decided to go over my sister's since she had power. As soon as I got there and got ready for bed my mother called to say the power was back on so I left.
4: My mother isnt talking to me. She's been a bitch since I got home last week. She yelled at me all day because I'm not working enough hours. It's not my fault that the place closes for Christmas and doesnt open again until after New Year's. I called several times this week but no one has answered the phone. I was told not to call Michele at home because she doesnt have the schedule there and to just tell the receptionist what days I want. Sure, that's fine... If the stupid receptionist would answer the phone. So my mother decided to try to take my car away from me. I pretty much laughed at her, reminding her that it wasnt just in her name and it's also in my name and I pay for a lot of that car. Yes, she doesnt take the money every month, but I have paid a good amount of it so far, so she has no right to take it from me. It's her own fault that I havent paid as much. She doesnt take the money out of my account every month like I tell her to. So I dont want to hear her bitching that I dont pay.
5: Can I move out of this house now? I dont like being here. I dont like constantly getting yelled at for no reason and being treated like a child. I feel like a stranger in my own house. I flat out dont want to be here. I dont feel like I should have to tell people where I'm going everytime I walk out the door or where I've been everytime I get home. It's really sad that I cant even take a shower without my mother knocking on the door to try to tell me something. And the same thing that happened to me over Thanksgiving happened again... I wake up and have no idea where I am. I just want to graduate and move the hell away from this place.
6: I was talking to someone the other night and they made me realize a lot of things. I do things to purposely put myself in a certain mood to get my mind off other things. I cant just accept things the way they are and let it be that way and let myself feel certain things. I have to do other things to make myself happy and content. I dont want to say too much here, but it really helped and I realized I can do certain things and feel certain things and it's ok. It also made me realize a lot of other things, which kind of scares me, but on the other hand it makes me very happy.
7: I havent been sleeping lately. It takes me forever to fall asleep and I wake up several times throughout the night. I know why, but there's nothing I can do about it.
Off to try to get some sleep... more later possibly.
Until next time...