different
i found out something today that if i had of found it out 6 months ago it would have drastically altered the past year.
What would have been different
Well for one i wouldnt feel like voldemort after harry destroyed the last horcrux
I wouldnt have self harmed
I wouldnt have gained weight
I wouldnt have chewed and spit
So lets explore these in full
No soul ripping apart would mean i would have enjoyed a lot of things a lot more. The science ball and the beach party and Union council would have been a lot more fun.
There is no way in hell i would have chose to go to ulster, aaaaah what have i got myself into? Ulster really?? Despite the fact i would have setteled for something in the republic i can't say this wont be a great masters. So the needing to run away was a very good thing.
If i felt okay i may not have gotten as close to as many friends as i did.
I wouldnt have spent every friday going to starbucks trying to feel alive and by not doing this i would never have met rehan. Tbh with rehan since he talks to soo many people i think its a bit fake. He has a lot of people who he talks to.
I wouldnt have gotten as close as i did to a lot of people. Which in all honestly i dont care. i have a lot of friends but i cant say i care for any of them.
I may not have stopped chewing and spitting. that got really out of control. I t may never have gotten out of control in the first place. Im going to be honest tho. I would trade every positive gain for the past 6 months. I would give back every single friend and expierence just so i wouldnt have to go through what i did.
I liked who i was before all of this, so if i could have the old cheryl back that would do nicely. But the thing is, i cant give those times back, i cant give the people back. I have made my bed now, this bed is made up of people and things that i cant return,
I could waste more time and live in the past and live in regrets or i could look forward and make the most of what is around me and what is in front of me. The old cheryl is being revived. This is going to be another journey, but with enough strenght i can do it.
What would have been different
Well for one i wouldnt feel like voldemort after harry destroyed the last horcrux
I wouldnt have self harmed
I wouldnt have gained weight
I wouldnt have chewed and spit
So lets explore these in full
No soul ripping apart would mean i would have enjoyed a lot of things a lot more. The science ball and the beach party and Union council would have been a lot more fun.
There is no way in hell i would have chose to go to ulster, aaaaah what have i got myself into? Ulster really?? Despite the fact i would have setteled for something in the republic i can't say this wont be a great masters. So the needing to run away was a very good thing.
If i felt okay i may not have gotten as close to as many friends as i did.
I wouldnt have spent every friday going to starbucks trying to feel alive and by not doing this i would never have met rehan. Tbh with rehan since he talks to soo many people i think its a bit fake. He has a lot of people who he talks to.
I wouldnt have gotten as close as i did to a lot of people. Which in all honestly i dont care. i have a lot of friends but i cant say i care for any of them.
I may not have stopped chewing and spitting. that got really out of control. I t may never have gotten out of control in the first place. Im going to be honest tho. I would trade every positive gain for the past 6 months. I would give back every single friend and expierence just so i wouldnt have to go through what i did.
I liked who i was before all of this, so if i could have the old cheryl back that would do nicely. But the thing is, i cant give those times back, i cant give the people back. I have made my bed now, this bed is made up of people and things that i cant return,
I could waste more time and live in the past and live in regrets or i could look forward and make the most of what is around me and what is in front of me. The old cheryl is being revived. This is going to be another journey, but with enough strenght i can do it.