why?
why do i push myself to unhealthy limits? why do i have to make a's and get involved in everything possible? why does it mean so much to excel and be an amazing person? why do i want to be the best girlfriend in the world? why do i want to be this happy carefree awesome girl with a wonderful and sparkling personality? who do i do it all for? who am i making proud? who really cares if i make all a's every semester of college and become a successful doctor who makes a ton of money? why do i want to be the center of someone's world? why do i want to mean the world to someone else? am i just setting myself up to be disappointed? do i aim my goals too high? why do i want the things that i do? how will i benefit from them? how will they make me a better person or someone to be more desired? what am i doing?
lately i've been so unhappy, so stressed out. i take on everything all the time. it is my job to make everyone else happy to solve everyone's problems. my spiritual gifts.... empathy, listening, determined, solving, ability to speak well... God has set me up to be a very emotional person. He has created me to be someone who relies so much on her feelings and wants to make everyone's feelings good ones. she wants to solve everyone's problems including her own, when she has the time, but without any help from anyone else. she doesn't need help because she can take on the world single handed....but can she really? can i really do it all alone? and if i don't does the person that i want to help me want to help? does that person find me to be a burden? does that person want to help me and pick me up when i fall? will that person love me even if i fail? am i the center of that person's world? do i mean the world to that person? does that person think that i am a happy carefree awesome girl with a wonderful and sparkling personality? does that person think i'm the best girlfriend in the world? does he know that i'm talking about him? is it too much of a responsibility to ask him for his help?...............
right now all she wants is a man
with a big ol' heart, who can love her like nobody can. big ol' kisses that go on and on and never end. with a big ol' smile, he'll fill her world with laughter....
lately i've been so unhappy, so stressed out. i take on everything all the time. it is my job to make everyone else happy to solve everyone's problems. my spiritual gifts.... empathy, listening, determined, solving, ability to speak well... God has set me up to be a very emotional person. He has created me to be someone who relies so much on her feelings and wants to make everyone's feelings good ones. she wants to solve everyone's problems including her own, when she has the time, but without any help from anyone else. she doesn't need help because she can take on the world single handed....but can she really? can i really do it all alone? and if i don't does the person that i want to help me want to help? does that person find me to be a burden? does that person want to help me and pick me up when i fall? will that person love me even if i fail? am i the center of that person's world? do i mean the world to that person? does that person think that i am a happy carefree awesome girl with a wonderful and sparkling personality? does that person think i'm the best girlfriend in the world? does he know that i'm talking about him? is it too much of a responsibility to ask him for his help?...............
right now all she wants is a man
with a big ol' heart, who can love her like nobody can. big ol' kisses that go on and on and never end. with a big ol' smile, he'll fill her world with laughter....