My state in life at the moment.
It seems I've reached a slight point of clarity in all the muck that has become my life. I'm feeling a bit more at ease with everything because I have a sense of what I want. The downside is that I can't have what I want right now, so in that way, life's still looking as bleak as it has been as of late, but in a different way. I'm more settled with it now. It's a strange calm. Crap's buzzing all around me, but yet it's calm.
Now, I've reached a point where I'm just letting things spin out of control, allowing myself to have a strong sense of not belonging and allowing myself to not care. I'm just letting it all go, and finding the beauty in the breakdown of it all. The things that are best suited to helping me fix me aren't in my life right now, at least not to the capacity that I need them to be, so for now I make due with what I have.
Again, this is all vague and shit, but no one needs to worry. These are mere ramblings of mine. I can't put it all into cleaer ideas than this right now anyway.
Now I have to go and study hard for my mid-term tomorrow. Principles of Disease, here I come to kick your ass!
Now, I've reached a point where I'm just letting things spin out of control, allowing myself to have a strong sense of not belonging and allowing myself to not care. I'm just letting it all go, and finding the beauty in the breakdown of it all. The things that are best suited to helping me fix me aren't in my life right now, at least not to the capacity that I need them to be, so for now I make due with what I have.
Again, this is all vague and shit, but no one needs to worry. These are mere ramblings of mine. I can't put it all into cleaer ideas than this right now anyway.
Now I have to go and study hard for my mid-term tomorrow. Principles of Disease, here I come to kick your ass!