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iridescentspark

Hard to keep going...

Oct 27, 2006 11:22

Well damn, yesterday I didnt end up packing anything. I ended up working on packing up some book orders, cleaning around the house and I did some laundry. I could have packed last night, but this is alot harder than I thought it was going to be. I'm still feeling so hurt, and sad. I keep *hoping* Mike will come home from work one day and tell me he ( Read more... )

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littleyuzu October 27 2006, 18:15:13 UTC

Oh Jess, I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I just got caught up and read through your previous entries regarding the whole situation. Splits really suck, and those first weeks following the break-up are the hardest. Yes, it would be nice to just fast-forward time and get to the point where you're not hurting as much as you are right now. But this is just something you have to suffer through to get to the rainbow. It'll only get better from here.

I don't think we'll ever understand the way a guy's mind works. He can love you so much, but not want to be with you - WTF is up with that? It seems almost nonsensical to us, but I guess it makes sense in their own minds. Just keep reminding yourself that what happened between you two is because of him - nothing you could do would've changed how he feels. It's all up to him to get his life on track. You can love him to pieces and vow to be there for him and help him through stuff, but he apparently needs to do this on his own ( ... )

iridescentspark October 27 2006, 18:30:02 UTC

Aweee Kat!
Thank you soooo much!! You are the first person who said something so kind, and understanding. Most of my friends and family are like, "Don't worry, everything will be alright, and you'll be ok". And It's like yeah, I know I will.. but right after the so-called love of your life breaks up with you out of the clear blue, you're lucky you remember how to breathe, let alone want to hear advice that you'll be ok LOL!! I don't think I'll ever understand his reasons for ending things, but I respect them. I wish he wasn't so stubborn that he wanted to get through his own issues on his own, but a part of me does, so thats why I'm agreeing to leave. I love him that much, I just want him to be happy, and if that takes me to leave so he can sort through the shit in his head, then so be it.

But Thank you for everything. You brought the biggest smile to my face all day! :D
xoxo ♥

interesting... anonymous October 28 2006, 02:23:24 UTC

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Re: interesting... anonymous October 30 2006, 23:41:49 UTC

VERY interesting..