same shit..different day
its been more than 2 months since i last posted...been going through some ups and downs with my hubby. ive noticed that ive been trying to convince myself that he is not controling when in reality that is exactly what he is.
im the type of woman who lives her life for her family. i wake up in the morning cook breakfast for kris b4 he leaves to work, make the milk for the baby, clean up quick b4 analees wakes up, then make breakfast for ana and alina, they have there playtime while i try to finish cleaning and what not (mind u i still havent ate anything) and the day goes on and on...my point is that i am always taking care of everyone else, except me. and i would think that maybe kris would come to see that i need some time for myself but nooo he doesnt. he just complains if he comes home and there might be a mess in the house. he would question me about what was i doing all day and get really mad...i mean wtf gives him a reason to even dare ask me what i was doing all day, obviously taking care of other matters and your KIDS! so anyways... i was going to go out with my sister last night because he agreed to stay with the girls and when he got home from work i reminded him that i was going out @ night. well lets just say he got up, put his clothes back on, and bounced. i was so fucking mad. he wasnt picking up his phone. he wasnt answering my text or IM's... i got so fucking angry that i cried for about hour straight. so i called my sister and friends to let them know that YES again i couldnt go out with them, i swear im lucky i still have my friends cuz im always going through the same shit over and over again. they understood ofcourse but im sure they were disapointed.
so hours go by and kris shows up at 3 am. i didnt even want to look @ him but my anger was poping out through my eyes and he came straight to me to apologize. i told him i didnt want to hear it and i turned my back @ him and went to sleep. anyways he went to work early this morning and NOPE i didnt get up to make him breakfast. fuck him he wants to treat me like shit.. i am going to show him what it feels like to be treated like shit...hes been calling me and leaving me messages on my cell and house answering-machine. i refuse to pick up the phone on him.
he claims that he scared of me getting back on the club scene. he doesnt want me to meet someone and leave him. he saids he is scared that i would play him like he played me a few years back. he knows that karma is a bitch and he saids it would kill him to find out that i did him dirty blah blah blah.... this is what he saids in the messages... i still havent spoken to him because he doesnt know how to communicate like adults so he's going to get a taste of his own medicine.... well enough ranting about Mr.Garcia...
as for my two little monkies they are doing fine..alina is already a year old and shes walking, as a matter a fact, as of today shes running lol...and analees is so excited about starting kindergarden in september...shes driving nuts about it !....i will be posting some recent pics of them soon.