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I-I can't stop it. This...pain coursing through me and shooting through my heart. Why won't it let me be? Doesn't it see I'm already in such anguish as it is? I've already been rejected, and I can do without that constant reminder. I just don't understand.
How could she just leave me?
One minute I see her at the fair, I turn away for a mere second, and she's gone. I've searched everywhere for her -- all around the fair, Axel's club, the restaurant and costume shop where she used to work, even the school, though it let out a while ago and I couldn't conjure a reason for her to be there except my pathetic hope that she simply would. I would stop by her hut if only I knew which one she lived in. I don't know how all this time we've been friends, I never asked Ku Fei where she lived.
Perhaps I'm only overreacting. I've only realized now how much I love her, and once I'm ready to tell her she's nowhere to be found. It troubles me that I can't do anything about these feelings except let them sit unshared and unreturned to fester within me until it hurts everywhere. It makes me sick, and I just want this all to go away.
Why...would you do this to me, Renge Houshakuji?
((OOC: The strikethrough is illegible, supposedly. I think it might be kind of obvious to some people who he's talking about anyway, so. Oh teh melodrama. XD I don't know, aphrodisiac mangoes don't bid well for either of my characters. It's even aggravating his illness.))
How could she just leave me?
One minute I see her at the fair, I turn away for a mere second, and she's gone. I've searched everywhere for her -- all around the fair, Axel's club, the restaurant and costume shop where she used to work, even the school, though it let out a while ago and I couldn't conjure a reason for her to be there except my pathetic hope that she simply would. I would stop by her hut if only I knew which one she lived in. I don't know how all this time we've been friends, I never asked Ku Fei where she lived.
Perhaps I'm only overreacting. I've only realized now how much I love her, and once I'm ready to tell her she's nowhere to be found. It troubles me that I can't do anything about these feelings except let them sit unshared and unreturned to fester within me until it hurts everywhere. It makes me sick, and I just want this all to go away.
Why...would you do this to me, Renge Houshakuji?
((OOC: The strikethrough is illegible, supposedly. I think it might be kind of obvious to some people who he's talking about anyway, so. Oh teh melodrama. XD I don't know, aphrodisiac mangoes don't bid well for either of my characters. It's even aggravating his illness.))