you made a mess of your new dress
Im freaking out right now, and my head is spinning. and i just realized i ate all of my blue berries.
i dont want to go to work tomorrow. it will be day 9, only 3 more to go and itll be 12 in a row.
I miss jenna. and i see her a lot but lately its like im not all there for her sometimes. i dunno. is that crazy? i feel like im barely existing or something. i have so much shit in my head right now and its keeping me from her in some small way.
And i am so worried about everything. This is supposed to be exciting times for me. ang and levesque are coming but im worried that stuff id gonna go wrong and m never gonna talk to them again. and i have a plane ticket to rhode island that i dont even want. i dont want to leave now that i fit here. for so long i never felt like i belonged here. but jenna makes me belong. if i had a change right now to move to rhode island i would say hell no im staying here. shes the something to stay for.
my job too but that is also for her, i dont want to be a bum i want to spend the rest of my life with her so i gotta work to make the life that i want to spend with her. and i am perfectly content with that.
i almost lost her again. i just fuck up like a million times in a row and one of these times its gonna be a bad fuck up and shes gonna get over me. thats how my life is. i would never do it intentionally. i never have fucked up intentionally with her. but still...idk.
i just love her so much. and my bad habits are gonna ruin her loving me back.
i dont want to go to work tomorrow. it will be day 9, only 3 more to go and itll be 12 in a row.
I miss jenna. and i see her a lot but lately its like im not all there for her sometimes. i dunno. is that crazy? i feel like im barely existing or something. i have so much shit in my head right now and its keeping me from her in some small way.
And i am so worried about everything. This is supposed to be exciting times for me. ang and levesque are coming but im worried that stuff id gonna go wrong and m never gonna talk to them again. and i have a plane ticket to rhode island that i dont even want. i dont want to leave now that i fit here. for so long i never felt like i belonged here. but jenna makes me belong. if i had a change right now to move to rhode island i would say hell no im staying here. shes the something to stay for.
my job too but that is also for her, i dont want to be a bum i want to spend the rest of my life with her so i gotta work to make the life that i want to spend with her. and i am perfectly content with that.
i almost lost her again. i just fuck up like a million times in a row and one of these times its gonna be a bad fuck up and shes gonna get over me. thats how my life is. i would never do it intentionally. i never have fucked up intentionally with her. but still...idk.
i just love her so much. and my bad habits are gonna ruin her loving me back.