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Well now since i have calmed my nerves a bit, i'll try to bear with myself and do an update before my night starts...
well went to deindorfer woods today at scc, took plenty of great pictures. we all wore scarves and hats that mrs.hocks mom or grandma made, it was pretty entertaining, especially when i made jon doerr wear the "santas wittle helper" tweety shirt. aww.had to run on the train tracks in front of an oncoming train in order to rescue a tripod. kristen made railroad track pennies, i was excited, and jealous. i get soo excited of simple nature things...like berries on trees that are black instead of red, and dead flowers... but i am disgusted by things in the bigger pictures. i think i could get by, by all of the simple things in life. too bad you can't do that...you have to always look at the bigger picture.
so then after school i updated my portfolio a little for graphic arts, and drew pictures (sketched) and watched music videos i havent watched in months and years(that i taped)... my parents left a little while ago and i was pretty sure that i was gonna be left alone for the night. but then i got ahold of stefanie and she is coming over, and we are gonna do something and then a might have a few people over...i guess.
in the midst of all of this, i got a comment, which u can view in an earlier entry.
so nick has e-mailed me a lot lately. and about nothing important, just day to day stuff, the only one that had any meaning was the one saying he regretted breaking up with me and stuff.
well i am told that him and veronica are playing a little game with me, and that they think im really gullable, and that nick has a deep hatred for me?!?
what the fuck... and well i guess they are gonna try to "break me"
ok...
-first of all how am i gullable when there is nothing that they would have to convince me into believing
-if u hate someone u dont normaly hug them every time u see them, tell them they are very attractive, kiss them, and tell them not to tell anyone (cough nick cough) normally u avoid them, or show them in some way that u hate them...
-how do they think they can "break me" they have no control over my life, maybe they should hint hint get one of their own.
-i did nothing to them, especially nick for him to have any sort of hatred for me, i dont like putting blame on people, but he is the one who hurt me... and they just wont give up and stop already.
-i wrote them a big e-mail telling them all of this, plus more, not forgetting how NOONE likes them anymore cause they are hermits, assholes, etc etc
-i guess lastly, they obviously need to get on with something, me and nick started going out a year ago, and obviously broke up a long time ago, youd think theyd like get over it by now, and leave me the fuck alone.
i in no way hate people for no reason, or give people reasons to hate me purposely ...so why do people always intend on trying to ruin or "break me" just leave my life the hell alone...i dont even see the bitches.
FUCK OFF SERIOUSLY~!
i guess the rant is oevr for now... that really was a shock, i thought he was just trying to be my fucking friend. trusting abilties in shanna go down another million points. i dont know who to believe anymore, people can be just soo crappy.
well li gotta get ready to do something. and all that shizzle. im gonna try to not let ignorant people get to me.
beh
<3
shanna
well went to deindorfer woods today at scc, took plenty of great pictures. we all wore scarves and hats that mrs.hocks mom or grandma made, it was pretty entertaining, especially when i made jon doerr wear the "santas wittle helper" tweety shirt. aww.had to run on the train tracks in front of an oncoming train in order to rescue a tripod. kristen made railroad track pennies, i was excited, and jealous. i get soo excited of simple nature things...like berries on trees that are black instead of red, and dead flowers... but i am disgusted by things in the bigger pictures. i think i could get by, by all of the simple things in life. too bad you can't do that...you have to always look at the bigger picture.
so then after school i updated my portfolio a little for graphic arts, and drew pictures (sketched) and watched music videos i havent watched in months and years(that i taped)... my parents left a little while ago and i was pretty sure that i was gonna be left alone for the night. but then i got ahold of stefanie and she is coming over, and we are gonna do something and then a might have a few people over...i guess.
in the midst of all of this, i got a comment, which u can view in an earlier entry.
so nick has e-mailed me a lot lately. and about nothing important, just day to day stuff, the only one that had any meaning was the one saying he regretted breaking up with me and stuff.
well i am told that him and veronica are playing a little game with me, and that they think im really gullable, and that nick has a deep hatred for me?!?
what the fuck... and well i guess they are gonna try to "break me"
ok...
-first of all how am i gullable when there is nothing that they would have to convince me into believing
-if u hate someone u dont normaly hug them every time u see them, tell them they are very attractive, kiss them, and tell them not to tell anyone (cough nick cough) normally u avoid them, or show them in some way that u hate them...
-how do they think they can "break me" they have no control over my life, maybe they should hint hint get one of their own.
-i did nothing to them, especially nick for him to have any sort of hatred for me, i dont like putting blame on people, but he is the one who hurt me... and they just wont give up and stop already.
-i wrote them a big e-mail telling them all of this, plus more, not forgetting how NOONE likes them anymore cause they are hermits, assholes, etc etc
-i guess lastly, they obviously need to get on with something, me and nick started going out a year ago, and obviously broke up a long time ago, youd think theyd like get over it by now, and leave me the fuck alone.
i in no way hate people for no reason, or give people reasons to hate me purposely ...so why do people always intend on trying to ruin or "break me" just leave my life the hell alone...i dont even see the bitches.
FUCK OFF SERIOUSLY~!
i guess the rant is oevr for now... that really was a shock, i thought he was just trying to be my fucking friend. trusting abilties in shanna go down another million points. i dont know who to believe anymore, people can be just soo crappy.
well li gotta get ready to do something. and all that shizzle. im gonna try to not let ignorant people get to me.
beh
<3
shanna