keepin in line...
well here we go again....went to class...took my quiz...probably failed...im just so down lately its not cool. i cant get away from anything ne more to where i had control and forget anything and everything. I lost in love. and confused as all hell. I cant be friends with dana...its to hard i love her to damn much. she broke my heart...telling me all this stuff that was false. Like being together forever and having a life together. it just never happens. i cant have ne thing i always wanted. I need to realize someday its just going to be me, and thats it. No one likes me. i feel as if im spinning in circles and Maiden says Too much time on my hands, I got you on my mind Can't ease this pain, so easily.When you can't find the words to say it's hard to make it through another day, and it just makes me wanna cry and throw my hands up to the sky. which really almost feels like i do. i wish i could have something i want for once.
I went to alyssa's today to get my movie(Napoleon Dynamite)....hehe great movie which i watched when i got home. we talked for almost a good hr. She has helped me alot. then i left and got josh and went to staples to raz on steve. then we came back here and did some stuff on the computer and junk. Then i dropped him off. I talked with Erin today and got stuff fixed with us thank god...bc i love that girl, she knows where i come from and im glad she was an open ear today to hear my pain.
i dunno its just sucks right now...but i need to go think...peace
heres the song of choice
In Flames- Another day in quicksand
The other side of the platinum door
another day in quicksand
Still feel close to nowhere
I hope this is the right way
How come you see me as an enemy?
We just think in different words
I see beauty in dead flowers
I let the tide show me what's next
But all you do is fade away
There's no shame in being the fool
I've been to places you'll never find
The empty plate that you call home
Won't bring glimmer to future years
By myself, staring into space
You're just bored of the silence it makes
I went to alyssa's today to get my movie(Napoleon Dynamite)....hehe great movie which i watched when i got home. we talked for almost a good hr. She has helped me alot. then i left and got josh and went to staples to raz on steve. then we came back here and did some stuff on the computer and junk. Then i dropped him off. I talked with Erin today and got stuff fixed with us thank god...bc i love that girl, she knows where i come from and im glad she was an open ear today to hear my pain.
i dunno its just sucks right now...but i need to go think...peace
heres the song of choice
In Flames- Another day in quicksand
The other side of the platinum door
another day in quicksand
Still feel close to nowhere
I hope this is the right way
How come you see me as an enemy?
We just think in different words
I see beauty in dead flowers
I let the tide show me what's next
But all you do is fade away
There's no shame in being the fool
I've been to places you'll never find
The empty plate that you call home
Won't bring glimmer to future years
By myself, staring into space
You're just bored of the silence it makes