Oct 14, 2004 03:07
i love my beautiful friend.
i couldnt be more prouder.
i couldnt have asked for a better brother.
i have felt nearly every feeling known for him,
and still came out alright.
i may not understand Everything.
but i am learning.
I see intentions,
I see dreams,
more importantly i see his heart.
searching and pressing into God.
There, he will find peace,
he will find hope,
there, he will always be home.
I know this to be truth.
I hate being the questioner,
but i ask the same of him,
and have often recieved the same from him.
i hate to wonder, and ponder,
but instead of leaving it to worry,
i brought it to light,
and let there be a clear response to it.
I am tired of the "church"
sitting on the side-lines,
never asking questions.
letting people, "live their lives".
Regardless of feelings, or assumptions,
we are meant to ask, to keep accountable, to stay in the light.
I had questions, and instead of assuming, i brought it into the light.
I aim that the church stops letting its members get "wounded" because they were too fearful of rejection or disappointment.
We can never fight, and stand in battle, if we dont keep our warriors healthy, ready for every attack the enemy might plan, or the enemy could twist and use.
He is a devourer and a theif; he will steal, kill, and destroy.
And if we dont walk in the light at ALL times,
with all that we think and feel,
we Will fail, and be devoured.
I am proud of my friend for walking in the light.
There was a risk that people would ask, would doubt, would confuse.
But instead of "whimping out" and deciding they could handle it on their own,
they let the church see, and question, and were ready to be "tested",
so that they would not be surprised by the attacker.
Even if we, with the best of intentions, stay in the dark, satan can twist things, and sneak in places, and end up hurting us.
i am so proud of you... keep walking in the light,
the peering, confused, misunderstanding eyes may sting your vulnerable heart, but I believe if you will keep walking, you will be safe from the enemy's plan to ruin you or anyone else.
I think if you keep walking, you will be made stronger, if you dont let your heart get hard.
I know that it may not feel like it, but I seriously know we all want to see "God's will be done, on earth as it is in heaven,"
and this is possible, only through transparency.
You are following Him. Keep going.
Please church, do this for me too... transparency. That is what we need with each other.
thank you.