back home
Just got home from Vermont.
Had a lot of thinknig to do there.
Did a lot of writing.
It was good to see my aunt and uncle.
My aunt asked me if I was happy....she said I didn't seem it.
Said she could tell I'd rather be at school.
I'm not sure what made me feel worse... admitting to the fact that I'd rather be at school...
or, not being able to admit to myself that I really wasn't happy.
There are so few things in my life that I'm happy with right now... it's so distressing.
Matt<3 means the world to me, he's so great... and I have a select group of friends that I adore.
I love my sister... I'd be lost without her.
Those are the few things that keep me smiling...
I'm extremely thankful for the listed above... soo amazingly thankful.
Other then that, I have a tough time finding anything that makes me happy.
I just want to be happy with myself again... it's be nice if that would happen.
Seems beyond my control again.
It's all a mind frame... a whacked out mind frame,
A crazy view of myself.
a fear...
I'm tired of being afraid.
Goodnight Moon*
Me_
Had a lot of thinknig to do there.
Did a lot of writing.
It was good to see my aunt and uncle.
My aunt asked me if I was happy....she said I didn't seem it.
Said she could tell I'd rather be at school.
I'm not sure what made me feel worse... admitting to the fact that I'd rather be at school...
or, not being able to admit to myself that I really wasn't happy.
There are so few things in my life that I'm happy with right now... it's so distressing.
Matt<3 means the world to me, he's so great... and I have a select group of friends that I adore.
I love my sister... I'd be lost without her.
Those are the few things that keep me smiling...
I'm extremely thankful for the listed above... soo amazingly thankful.
Other then that, I have a tough time finding anything that makes me happy.
I just want to be happy with myself again... it's be nice if that would happen.
Seems beyond my control again.
It's all a mind frame... a whacked out mind frame,
A crazy view of myself.
a fear...
I'm tired of being afraid.
Goodnight Moon*
Me_