I Dont Want To Be The One Who Murders Your Spirit

[inuitandi]

So someone once told me theres a fine line between love and hate. This got me thinking a bit, expecially lately with all that has been going on around me. I see a lot of people from my past and barely recgonize who they are anymore and it just leaves me wondering.. 5 years from now will any of us even know each other still exist? Think of the people you used to hang out with inbetween every class in middle school.. did you talk at all after your freshman year of high school? All those best friends forever and love until you die people... where are they now? My sophmore year I met this guy named Lanny.. the summer came and he called me but I was too busy to talk other things were more important. I think about him almost every single day. Correction in some way or another it is every day. Theres a qoute from rent (yeah this is a qoute entry I know) Forget regrets or life is yours to miss.. there's so much I regret that I try not to influence my life in any way but every now and then I get scared of making the same mistakes over and over again.. also known as why I dont settle down or get too close to many people.

We have all been hurt and hate people for it... but on the other hand do we hate them just for what they did and what we do to ourselves or because we loved them so much that it hurt when they let us down. When you love someone you have such great hopes for them.. and for them and you in some cases. Without hope there is no real disappointment. So why should we ever hope? Well, theres that one in a million chance maybe this time things might turn out alright. I still am thinking about a few people right now as I type this and you know what? Thats alright. Its better to learn from your mistakes and failed dreams than to just forget them.