i felt like writing
the worst thing ever.. is that i broke every bone falling for you , ripped right through the tissue an you never noticed. I wanted to treat you so right but I ended up smothering you. You said you wanted a girl to care.. I cared so much I pushed you away. Tell me is it wrong to want to have kissed you like the first time every time? wrong to have wanted to give you everything but not knowing how? wrong for me to have tried so hard that i lost sleep wondering wether i was making you happy or not. is it wrong that when you said "this is the end" i broke down in front of you an cried enough to filll the oceans 2x over? I loved you more than anything an wanted to be everything you needed but the truth is i was never good enough for you.. I should've known better but i was blind. Im sorry. I'm sorry for all the days you wasted on me an our seemingly pointless relations. I'm sorry I couldn't be everything you wanted an I fell short of your expectations. But I thought loving you was enough..
I want to be able to treat you like my equal my best friend my love. I want to cater to your needs an make you happy. I want to be everything you want me to be.. an that being me. I want you to love me for me. I want this so much that I fear I can never have it. You'll never see me the way I deserved to be seen but still I hold on to this last thread as if my death shall come if I lose my grasp because I know that you will realize I'm here an waiting for you..
i felt like writing. i did. im done. fuck.
In the end. I'm sorry.
i wanted to be your dream girl. i did everything i was suppose to changed my ways changed myself for you. i lost the very person i was because i thought that would make you happy. when in reality i was miserable. miserable that i had to walk on eggshells with you an always be fake. you loved everything about me. but that wasnt me you see.. that was me masquerading around being the perfect lil girl you wanted. I want to be me. I want you to love me for me. i cant take this sharade any longer. im sorry
single people are always so much fuckin fun now arent they!!!!
hahah i was in a writing mood an im single so of course i hate the world at this moment. an yah i have anger an i wrote with it. so fuck wit it bitches
I want to be able to treat you like my equal my best friend my love. I want to cater to your needs an make you happy. I want to be everything you want me to be.. an that being me. I want you to love me for me. I want this so much that I fear I can never have it. You'll never see me the way I deserved to be seen but still I hold on to this last thread as if my death shall come if I lose my grasp because I know that you will realize I'm here an waiting for you..
i felt like writing. i did. im done. fuck.
In the end. I'm sorry.
i wanted to be your dream girl. i did everything i was suppose to changed my ways changed myself for you. i lost the very person i was because i thought that would make you happy. when in reality i was miserable. miserable that i had to walk on eggshells with you an always be fake. you loved everything about me. but that wasnt me you see.. that was me masquerading around being the perfect lil girl you wanted. I want to be me. I want you to love me for me. i cant take this sharade any longer. im sorry
single people are always so much fuckin fun now arent they!!!!
hahah i was in a writing mood an im single so of course i hate the world at this moment. an yah i have anger an i wrote with it. so fuck wit it bitches