MelloDramatic Life To Life...?
I dont know how to feel about things anymore. People are going downhill fast and I hate it. I dont hate that they are, just me. I have learned in my time of being in Portland that no one else will watch your back so you have to get things done yourself. I fucken hate almost everyone that I surround myself with. I guess I should move on and make new friends but it's hard to do when you have social anxiety. I dont want to go through the friend screening process again. I had perfectly good friends but they all had to leave me and go off and do whatever the fuck they are doing now. I give up pretty much. I'll just never leave my house ever again. AAHHHHHHHHHH!
I miss Maggie alot. She never comes over to see me and it seems like she cant even make time to call me. It's like I have to call her and makes plans to hang out with her and some of the times we have hung out is because she asked me to bring her places for her own person gain.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!? People fucking take advantage of me being a nice guy and I get walked all over and for what? NOTHING IN RETURN. Not even one good friend has come out of anything.
Im fucking done!
I miss Maggie alot. She never comes over to see me and it seems like she cant even make time to call me. It's like I have to call her and makes plans to hang out with her and some of the times we have hung out is because she asked me to bring her places for her own person gain.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!? People fucking take advantage of me being a nice guy and I get walked all over and for what? NOTHING IN RETURN. Not even one good friend has come out of anything.
Im fucking done!