Is it getting better? Or do you feel the same...?
So, I feel weird. I guess I'll just tell the whole story of last night from start to finish.
I met up with Chris and his two friends for dinner at like 5:00, and after we ate then we went to Davis Library to get some homework done. Chris told me he had a club meeting to go to at like 9:30, and I asked him what club it was. Turns out, it was the 4-Square club. Now, I don't know if anyone played this as a kid like I did, but oh man. It was crazy nostalgia. He invited me to go with him because he wanted to play, so I said sure and we went, after working on Russian stuff for a couple hours in the library.
Let me tell you. 4-Square is still really fucking fun, even when you're not a kid anymore. Holy shit. I had such a good time. The members of the "club" (I have no idea if it is official or not) usually make up crazy rules that you have to follow, ranging from "double bounce" (where the ball has to bounce twice before you hit it) to counting backwards by 3's starting from 65 (you have to say the next number in the series before you hit) or some other random math-related rule, and quickly evolving (devolving? lol) into naming "sexual devices." You can probably guess what that entailed. It was the most fun I have had in a long time. All our sides ached from laughing so hard. And then after the Red Sox won last night we had the distinct pleasure of seeing two very naked guys streaking across the pit and dancing in front of the big Student Union windows.
So after we all got too tired to play 4-Square any more, we just sat and chillaxed on the steps of the pit for about an hour or so. It was me, Chris, and his two friends Brett and Greg (I think that was the other guy's name...). After a while Greg went home, and Brett wanted to go get something to eat but Chris and I were too tired so we went back to our dorms.
So when I got back to my dorm, I decided I had had enough of the stupid game and gave Chris a call. I basically told him that I was wondering where things stood, and I told him that I was attracted to him and interested in a dating type relationship and that I was wondering if he was too. I also said that it was perfectly fine if he was not interested or if he was not looking for something like that. And basically, he told me that he hadn't thought about it that way, and that he is "not really in that place right now," which I assume means he is not looking for a dating type relationship at the moment. So in essence he has been totally oblivious this whole time. I should have known. But anyways, I said that I understood and that it wasn't a big deal. But he seemed really worried that we weren't going to hang out anymore or something, and he kept telling me what an awesome time he had hanging out with me and stuff, and I assured him we would definitely still hang out.
So, I am disappointed, but not heartbroken or anything drastic like that. I'm fine, and I have an awesome new friend out of all this so it's OK. Plus his friends are really cool and seem to like me. I guess I just don't understand how he saw the way we have been hanging out as purely platonic...but then again, who fucking understands guys' mindsets anyway? I know I don't. So it's all good. We had dinner together with a few of his friends again tonight, and this weekend hopefully I will be hanging out with him and that guy Brett, who is really funny and perverted and generally cool to talk to. And I am most certainly going to keep playing 4-Square on Wednesday nights because it just kicks ass.
So, yeah. That's about it. Now if only everything else in my life could be this open-and-shut...
I met up with Chris and his two friends for dinner at like 5:00, and after we ate then we went to Davis Library to get some homework done. Chris told me he had a club meeting to go to at like 9:30, and I asked him what club it was. Turns out, it was the 4-Square club. Now, I don't know if anyone played this as a kid like I did, but oh man. It was crazy nostalgia. He invited me to go with him because he wanted to play, so I said sure and we went, after working on Russian stuff for a couple hours in the library.
Let me tell you. 4-Square is still really fucking fun, even when you're not a kid anymore. Holy shit. I had such a good time. The members of the "club" (I have no idea if it is official or not) usually make up crazy rules that you have to follow, ranging from "double bounce" (where the ball has to bounce twice before you hit it) to counting backwards by 3's starting from 65 (you have to say the next number in the series before you hit) or some other random math-related rule, and quickly evolving (devolving? lol) into naming "sexual devices." You can probably guess what that entailed. It was the most fun I have had in a long time. All our sides ached from laughing so hard. And then after the Red Sox won last night we had the distinct pleasure of seeing two very naked guys streaking across the pit and dancing in front of the big Student Union windows.
So after we all got too tired to play 4-Square any more, we just sat and chillaxed on the steps of the pit for about an hour or so. It was me, Chris, and his two friends Brett and Greg (I think that was the other guy's name...). After a while Greg went home, and Brett wanted to go get something to eat but Chris and I were too tired so we went back to our dorms.
So when I got back to my dorm, I decided I had had enough of the stupid game and gave Chris a call. I basically told him that I was wondering where things stood, and I told him that I was attracted to him and interested in a dating type relationship and that I was wondering if he was too. I also said that it was perfectly fine if he was not interested or if he was not looking for something like that. And basically, he told me that he hadn't thought about it that way, and that he is "not really in that place right now," which I assume means he is not looking for a dating type relationship at the moment. So in essence he has been totally oblivious this whole time. I should have known. But anyways, I said that I understood and that it wasn't a big deal. But he seemed really worried that we weren't going to hang out anymore or something, and he kept telling me what an awesome time he had hanging out with me and stuff, and I assured him we would definitely still hang out.
So, I am disappointed, but not heartbroken or anything drastic like that. I'm fine, and I have an awesome new friend out of all this so it's OK. Plus his friends are really cool and seem to like me. I guess I just don't understand how he saw the way we have been hanging out as purely platonic...but then again, who fucking understands guys' mindsets anyway? I know I don't. So it's all good. We had dinner together with a few of his friends again tonight, and this weekend hopefully I will be hanging out with him and that guy Brett, who is really funny and perverted and generally cool to talk to. And I am most certainly going to keep playing 4-Square on Wednesday nights because it just kicks ass.
So, yeah. That's about it. Now if only everything else in my life could be this open-and-shut...