(no subject)
Well...it's due time for another entry. I'm over feeling sorry for myself, it's a little difficult, but how am I ever gonna get better if all I do is complain about my uneventful life. So what if my life consists solely of reading, writing, sewing, macrometing, surfing, sleeping, and meditating. So what? That's what I do. I meditate for hours every day, I read when I'm bored, I sew and embroider whatever I can, and I macromet when there's nothing to sew or embroider, and I go to sleep at 7:30 every night. That's how I chose to live my life, because I chose to be myself instead of falling in with the flock of sheep, it was my decision, and now that I can accept that, I can move on. Right? I hope so, it is quite liberating, I must say. I feel sorry for everyone else, everyone who does not know that they are part of this massive flock of sheep, everybody who fails to acknowledge it even, ever naive sould out there, I feel sorry for them, not myself. I feel sorry for the people who speed up when they see a dog run into the middle of the street. I feel sorry for people who laugh at important, meaningful things. I feel sorry for those who think that violence is the answer. I feel sorry for those who think that nature is at our disposal. I feel sorry for those who are so ignorant, that they can't even see the vices in themselves, nonetheless the people around them. Yes, I have pitty on them, not myself, for I not only know right from wrong, but I act on it. I run out in the middle of the street after that dog and stop the cars, so that I can lead him safely back home. I listen to the important things, not laugh. I am a lover and an intellectual fighter, not a hater. I am part of nature, and don't want to dispose of myself. I see the many vices in myself, I see the many vices in others, and all I can do is smile and shake my head, because I'm never going to change the way people are, that's in their upbringing, and their individual self, not in me, but I can try to change the few who I can, and I can try to convince those few of our societal wrongs, and I can try to save our environment, even if it's only one tree, one animal, one person, I can still try.