Want
As of late I haven't been "myself." That is, according to Nicole, I've been very quiet and almost melancholy.
It's stupid to admit this, but I can tie this change of mood directly to the fact that my plan to finally get a smartphone was thwarted a few days ago. Is want really that powerful?
Here's the deal. There's this incredible, progressive cell phone provider under the Sprint Network called Credo Mobile. The beautiful thing about them is that instead of donating to conservative/right-wing causes like pretty much every other phone company, Credo's causes include Greenpeace and Planned Parenthood. They also print everything on soy-based paper, have completely green phones, and have offset the carbon emissions of every phone they sell. They even buy out your contract from your old cell phone company. If I'm going to have a cell phone, this is the company I want.
I've been waiting for a good moment to switch. Finally, they talked about the eventual release of the HTC Hero, which to me looks like a better smart phone than even the iPhone for what I want it to do (mostly work stuff). It's just a beautiful phone that is ridiculously customizable, and it's on the Google Android network, which means it can do pretty much everything. I got on the alert list for when they were releasing the Hero, which came out just a few days ago. I set to work figuring out how I could get the phone as soon as possible. The phone was only 80 bucks, and the phone plan would be barely more than we pay now at T-mobile for two phones, texting/minutes, and my web plan.
After some back-and-forth with a customer service rep, though, my hopes were dashed. While they do sort of "buy out" your previous contract, they do it in a way that makes sense for them and protects them: they credit your cell phone account. It's all money, and it would be great not to have a cell phone bill for roughly four months (T-Mobile's cancellation fee is $200 per line!), there's just no way for us to come up with that chunk of change up front. I tried every which way to find the money, but it just isn't there. It'll have to wait until next month, or even later.
Apparently, this "no" from the universe has set off some internal tantrum that is still brewing in me. It's kicking up the familiar old feelings of "why can't I just get something when I want it for once?" and "will we ever be comfortable?" Nicole even tried looking into T-Mobile smart phones (which suck so much ass, btw) but all I could think was, "NO. I want MY phone and MY phone company." While I stand by my refusal to renew my contract with TMobile for two more years, this tantrum is so crazy. And all of this over a stupid phone.
I don't know how to pull myself out of this, save for getting that beautiful, beautiful phone and finally having a cell phone company with a conscience.
It's stupid to admit this, but I can tie this change of mood directly to the fact that my plan to finally get a smartphone was thwarted a few days ago. Is want really that powerful?
Here's the deal. There's this incredible, progressive cell phone provider under the Sprint Network called Credo Mobile. The beautiful thing about them is that instead of donating to conservative/right-wing causes like pretty much every other phone company, Credo's causes include Greenpeace and Planned Parenthood. They also print everything on soy-based paper, have completely green phones, and have offset the carbon emissions of every phone they sell. They even buy out your contract from your old cell phone company. If I'm going to have a cell phone, this is the company I want.
I've been waiting for a good moment to switch. Finally, they talked about the eventual release of the HTC Hero, which to me looks like a better smart phone than even the iPhone for what I want it to do (mostly work stuff). It's just a beautiful phone that is ridiculously customizable, and it's on the Google Android network, which means it can do pretty much everything. I got on the alert list for when they were releasing the Hero, which came out just a few days ago. I set to work figuring out how I could get the phone as soon as possible. The phone was only 80 bucks, and the phone plan would be barely more than we pay now at T-mobile for two phones, texting/minutes, and my web plan.
After some back-and-forth with a customer service rep, though, my hopes were dashed. While they do sort of "buy out" your previous contract, they do it in a way that makes sense for them and protects them: they credit your cell phone account. It's all money, and it would be great not to have a cell phone bill for roughly four months (T-Mobile's cancellation fee is $200 per line!), there's just no way for us to come up with that chunk of change up front. I tried every which way to find the money, but it just isn't there. It'll have to wait until next month, or even later.
Apparently, this "no" from the universe has set off some internal tantrum that is still brewing in me. It's kicking up the familiar old feelings of "why can't I just get something when I want it for once?" and "will we ever be comfortable?" Nicole even tried looking into T-Mobile smart phones (which suck so much ass, btw) but all I could think was, "NO. I want MY phone and MY phone company." While I stand by my refusal to renew my contract with TMobile for two more years, this tantrum is so crazy. And all of this over a stupid phone.
I don't know how to pull myself out of this, save for getting that beautiful, beautiful phone and finally having a cell phone company with a conscience.