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Trying to get this week to move along a little quicker but I know I don't really have any control over that haha.
Figured it was time to update again since I am really good at slacking on updating typically.
Slow season is in full effect at work too which makes the time move SO slowly.
We are gearing up to switch systems again for the 2nd time since I started working here 3 years ago.
The current system was a step up from what we have been using but its still not what we need.
Curious to see what kind of chaos we experience with the next change-over.
The only other news that is work related would be we hired a 3rd person, Roxie, who Cheyanne and I use to work with at 02.
Not 100% stoked about it but it is what it is.
I don't make any final decisions around here on anything.
Just super annoying that Cheyanne referred her in the first place but hey, I regret even referring Cheyanne and helping her to get out of O2.
Anyway, moving on!
Home life has gotten WAY better.
Matt has been out for about 2 months now, he seems to be doing alright.
Mom is the only person who has been keeping in contact with him.
Dad might be here or there but I haven't really been speaking to him too much as usual so I have no idea.
He's pissed me off enough with all of the Matthew BS that I'm just trying to lay low.
I've actually been laying low a lot recently.
We submitted our vacate notice to the front office so in about a month we have to start looking for either a 3 bedroom house to rent or another 3 bedroom apartment.
Looks like I'm stuck with the moms and littlest brother for a bit longer. :P
The moms, Brook, Mia and I did end up going to CA for a weekend at the end of June.
We had a really great time minus me having to drive the entire trip.
I miss the beach a little too much right now to be honest haha.
The weather was PERFECT while we were out there which doesn't help being back in this hot ass AZ weather.
Our Monsoon season has officially started but its been on the lame side so far.
We could really use the rain more than the dust!
Brook and I cancelled the trip to Vegas this month.
She's broke and I can't afford to cover both of us.
Its for the better, I need a small little break anyway.
I'm suppose to be saving money and then some to pay off the IRS but its been a struggle.
All I want to do is travel.
Tired of sitting around at a desk job all day during the week and then doing whatever randomly on the weekends.
Nicholas FINALLY proposed to Amanda when they were in CA last week.
Soooo... another wedding will be coming around in the next year or 2 probably. .moans and groans.
Granted, they've been together for almost 9 years so maybe they won't actually have a wedding for 8 or 9 years. hahahaha.
Totally kidding.
Well, sort of. :P
The only other wedding plans I've been a part of are Crystal's.
Everything is coming together for her finally.
I bought my bridesmaid dress and received it about 2 weeks ago.
Its on the small side which I did on purpose but I'm not even sure if I'm going to fit into it come October.
The gym has become a daily routine again which is AWESOME but I just cannot get myself to stay on a strict eating better plan.
I'm just not all that interested in limiting myself on what I can and can't eat.
This probably means I'm going to be stuck around 240 lbs for a REALLY long time... BLAH.
My water intake has gotten MUCH better.
Purchased some new protein powder from a new company and I made my first shake the other night, it turned out pretty good!
Not disappointed one bit, that's for sure.
Let's see.. Ah yes...
Ryan (GA) officially deleted and blocked me from everything at the end of May.
I decided to message one of his ex girlfriends and get some information from her.
Luckily she was willing to share a lot and pretty much filled me in on the fact that he's a POS, loves you one day and then hates you the next, manipulative and selfish but that he was quite the sweet talker.
She said they dated for almost 4 years and during that time he was struggling with finding a job as well as he was constantly bringing up his dad leaving and not really giving a shit about him.
Obviously I dodged a bullet but Jesus, what is wrong with people???
You live in a completely different state from me, pretty much stalked me for 4 years, acting like a completely normal person to end up disappearing without even saying a word.
I guess the way people treat people these days is fun or something.
Just another shitty ass lesson learned.
I mean I did get some of an experience out of it but I don't think I will ever travel to another state for somebody ever again.
Been taking a SUPER long break from any dating apps until 2 weekends ago.
Not gonna lie, I got bored.
My life isn't really all that interesting these days.
I ended up signing up for a dating app that I've never been on and that I will NEVER EVER get back on ever again.
The awful messages I received were an absolute joke and I couldn't take any of them seriously obviously.
There was 1 guy who stood out, acted normal and knew how to hold a conversation which is always a nice thing.
We exchanged phone numbers so I could delete the app, talked for a good week, EVEN met 1 night and then this past weekend, his phone crashed and burned OR he's ignoring me which super sucks.
.sighs.
He is AMAZING. his name is Brandon and he actually lives down the road from me.
He's 5 years younger than me but he works out and is in crazy good shape, compete's in body building events.
He's a software engineer AND he personal trains.
We only met for 20 minutes about a week ago out in front of my gym to see how things would go in person and they went really well!
He immediately text me afterwards and said I was perfect.
We talked all day Friday and into Friday evening, only heard from him 3 times on Saturday and once Sunday morning.
He warned me that his phone was having issues before we exchanged phone numbers which is such a bummer.
I've text him back numerous times and even tried calling but keep getting an unavailable message.
Called from my moms phone and received the same message and had Christian text him last night with no luck.
Found him on IG so messaged him there but he only ever get's on there like once a month.
At this point, I know which gym he works out at but I really don't want to come off stalkerish so I guess I just let it go and hope he texts or responds back to my IG message one of these days.
THIS IS ALWAYS HAPPENING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Realistically, whether I try or don't try, the universe fucks me anyway.
I don't know if any woman has ever had this much bad luck with men.
I am sure there are plenty that have but damn, do I feel like the only one these days.
Super sucks to watch everyone else around me get so settled in life and I'm just here.
The hardest part is accepting the fact that there's nothing I can change with any of the shit that gets thrown my way.
A guy from high school hit me up 2 weekends ago, same weekend that Brandon and I started chatting, wanting to hang out.
He married somebody that hates me and has a 7 year old kid.
I'm not remotely interested and just haven't had the heart to tell him yet that I don't even feel like hanging out with him.
They all want what they can't have.
Story of my mother fucking life.
< / 3.
Figured it was time to update again since I am really good at slacking on updating typically.
Slow season is in full effect at work too which makes the time move SO slowly.
We are gearing up to switch systems again for the 2nd time since I started working here 3 years ago.
The current system was a step up from what we have been using but its still not what we need.
Curious to see what kind of chaos we experience with the next change-over.
The only other news that is work related would be we hired a 3rd person, Roxie, who Cheyanne and I use to work with at 02.
Not 100% stoked about it but it is what it is.
I don't make any final decisions around here on anything.
Just super annoying that Cheyanne referred her in the first place but hey, I regret even referring Cheyanne and helping her to get out of O2.
Anyway, moving on!
Home life has gotten WAY better.
Matt has been out for about 2 months now, he seems to be doing alright.
Mom is the only person who has been keeping in contact with him.
Dad might be here or there but I haven't really been speaking to him too much as usual so I have no idea.
He's pissed me off enough with all of the Matthew BS that I'm just trying to lay low.
I've actually been laying low a lot recently.
We submitted our vacate notice to the front office so in about a month we have to start looking for either a 3 bedroom house to rent or another 3 bedroom apartment.
Looks like I'm stuck with the moms and littlest brother for a bit longer. :P
The moms, Brook, Mia and I did end up going to CA for a weekend at the end of June.
We had a really great time minus me having to drive the entire trip.
I miss the beach a little too much right now to be honest haha.
The weather was PERFECT while we were out there which doesn't help being back in this hot ass AZ weather.
Our Monsoon season has officially started but its been on the lame side so far.
We could really use the rain more than the dust!
Brook and I cancelled the trip to Vegas this month.
She's broke and I can't afford to cover both of us.
Its for the better, I need a small little break anyway.
I'm suppose to be saving money and then some to pay off the IRS but its been a struggle.
All I want to do is travel.
Tired of sitting around at a desk job all day during the week and then doing whatever randomly on the weekends.
Nicholas FINALLY proposed to Amanda when they were in CA last week.
Soooo... another wedding will be coming around in the next year or 2 probably. .moans and groans.
Granted, they've been together for almost 9 years so maybe they won't actually have a wedding for 8 or 9 years. hahahaha.
Totally kidding.
Well, sort of. :P
The only other wedding plans I've been a part of are Crystal's.
Everything is coming together for her finally.
I bought my bridesmaid dress and received it about 2 weeks ago.
Its on the small side which I did on purpose but I'm not even sure if I'm going to fit into it come October.
The gym has become a daily routine again which is AWESOME but I just cannot get myself to stay on a strict eating better plan.
I'm just not all that interested in limiting myself on what I can and can't eat.
This probably means I'm going to be stuck around 240 lbs for a REALLY long time... BLAH.
My water intake has gotten MUCH better.
Purchased some new protein powder from a new company and I made my first shake the other night, it turned out pretty good!
Not disappointed one bit, that's for sure.
Let's see.. Ah yes...
Ryan (GA) officially deleted and blocked me from everything at the end of May.
I decided to message one of his ex girlfriends and get some information from her.
Luckily she was willing to share a lot and pretty much filled me in on the fact that he's a POS, loves you one day and then hates you the next, manipulative and selfish but that he was quite the sweet talker.
She said they dated for almost 4 years and during that time he was struggling with finding a job as well as he was constantly bringing up his dad leaving and not really giving a shit about him.
Obviously I dodged a bullet but Jesus, what is wrong with people???
You live in a completely different state from me, pretty much stalked me for 4 years, acting like a completely normal person to end up disappearing without even saying a word.
I guess the way people treat people these days is fun or something.
Just another shitty ass lesson learned.
I mean I did get some of an experience out of it but I don't think I will ever travel to another state for somebody ever again.
Been taking a SUPER long break from any dating apps until 2 weekends ago.
Not gonna lie, I got bored.
My life isn't really all that interesting these days.
I ended up signing up for a dating app that I've never been on and that I will NEVER EVER get back on ever again.
The awful messages I received were an absolute joke and I couldn't take any of them seriously obviously.
There was 1 guy who stood out, acted normal and knew how to hold a conversation which is always a nice thing.
We exchanged phone numbers so I could delete the app, talked for a good week, EVEN met 1 night and then this past weekend, his phone crashed and burned OR he's ignoring me which super sucks.
.sighs.
He is AMAZING. his name is Brandon and he actually lives down the road from me.
He's 5 years younger than me but he works out and is in crazy good shape, compete's in body building events.
He's a software engineer AND he personal trains.
We only met for 20 minutes about a week ago out in front of my gym to see how things would go in person and they went really well!
He immediately text me afterwards and said I was perfect.
We talked all day Friday and into Friday evening, only heard from him 3 times on Saturday and once Sunday morning.
He warned me that his phone was having issues before we exchanged phone numbers which is such a bummer.
I've text him back numerous times and even tried calling but keep getting an unavailable message.
Called from my moms phone and received the same message and had Christian text him last night with no luck.
Found him on IG so messaged him there but he only ever get's on there like once a month.
At this point, I know which gym he works out at but I really don't want to come off stalkerish so I guess I just let it go and hope he texts or responds back to my IG message one of these days.
THIS IS ALWAYS HAPPENING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Realistically, whether I try or don't try, the universe fucks me anyway.
I don't know if any woman has ever had this much bad luck with men.
I am sure there are plenty that have but damn, do I feel like the only one these days.
Super sucks to watch everyone else around me get so settled in life and I'm just here.
The hardest part is accepting the fact that there's nothing I can change with any of the shit that gets thrown my way.
A guy from high school hit me up 2 weekends ago, same weekend that Brandon and I started chatting, wanting to hang out.
He married somebody that hates me and has a 7 year old kid.
I'm not remotely interested and just haven't had the heart to tell him yet that I don't even feel like hanging out with him.
They all want what they can't have.
Story of my mother fucking life.
< / 3.