King in the castle, King in the castle
As the band Staind says "It's been a while..." I fucking hate Staind. They make me depressed. Anyway last time I left off I was about to move into another place in Grand Rapids and was being bummed about the IT job. All I have to say is that good things come to those who wait. Right now I am writing this from MY OWN PLACE. I moved out of Grand Rapids and I am now living in Zeeland Michigan. If you know anything about Zeeland you know that it's the complete oppsite of Grand Rapids. It's a small town, a dry town (you can't even return beer cans/bottles at Family Fare!), everything closes at 9 I swear I'm not even kidding. Actually now that I think about it, Zeeland isn't a dry town, they have a pizza place just down the street that sells beer. You chould come check it out it's all the rage! Haha. Don't get me wrong though, I love it. I'm just still getting used to the quiet life still, even though I have been here for a month already. I'm just used to there being a billion bars, a night life and noise. I really needed to move out of my house. I wasn't going anywhere, it wasn't bad I just wasn't going anywhere. I worked at a job that I was good at but didn't pay well and I slowly grew to hate it. I lived in a house where the main focus was to smoke pot all day, drink all night and never pay bills, and I was content with it. Thats not what I wanted though. I'm not going to lie, I had some great times and I love every one of my roomates. I had to grow up though. I got a job at a bank now that pays me well and I get to sit down all day and be challenged once again. I love it. I have a house where the food is still in the fridge and it's quiet when I want it to be. I live closer to my family and I get to see them a lot more and I stay away from the things that held me back. It's different but it's also good. Kinda boring at times. I don't really have any friends here, which sucks. I guess that will come in time. Still don't have a girlfriend. I wish I did. I watched Knocked up tonight and it made me all sad and lonesome. The movie was funny and great, so funny, but it made me lonley. I figured out that when I was living in Grand Rapids I thought "Oh I'm on my own I can have a girlfriend and we can have lots of sex and she can sleepover and it'll be awesome." I wasn't ready for that. Like I said earlier I was smoking pot and getting shitfaced all the time. I was just being dumb, waiting for someone to come along and change me for the better. There were a few who tried, and I fucked it up. I'm not getting down on myself here but looking back....shit. I don't regret it though. I only have one regret and it's not something I'm going to go into, well make that two. Still I'm not going into those. You live and learn, right? Right now I am in a much better place than I was, so much better. If you would have told me a month and a half ago I'd be where I am right now I'd probably have taken another bong hit and said "Dude, so you're like from the future? Woah!" So all in all I'm really doing well. I got my shit together feeling like an adult and being happy and that's all I really wanted.