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so im there.
on the rocks.
arms out stretched , feeling the mist on my face.
listening to the sound of the ocean.
you wont answer my calls.
you say your too emotional to talk.
when everyones coupled up and you have no one to talk to
there is nothing really to do except go one after the other
killing yourself.
i fall into reality as my foot slips from the rock.
banging my knee against the rocks.
the wind so cold.
the night so cold.
couldnt even enjoy myself i was panicing for warmth.
forcing a smile on my face i walk back to the ball
of cuddling people.
i sit by myself.
text messages were the way to hide our true complection.
i guess its easier to say those words on that then in person.
its easier to communicate when your behind a screen.
i just wait.
we go home. but i cant go home. i go to the park.
bathroom for warmth.
smiles and laughter on everyones faces.
glossy eyes of happiness.
i guess everyone needs that little boost for happiness.
i know i did.
it made things better.
it made it harder to talk to her.
i dont think i even made much sense.
but things sure got better.
we talked until almost sun up.
and everything worked out.
i mean like i feel better.
i dont think she does.
i mean there is still "tyler"
i feel bad. i feel is all my fault for all this confusion.
it could be better if i just wasnt around.
everything would be so much better.
but there is nothign you can really do now.
i threw everthing up in the wind last night.
i will just have to wait to see where this wind is heading.
and just go with it.
on the rocks.
arms out stretched , feeling the mist on my face.
listening to the sound of the ocean.
you wont answer my calls.
you say your too emotional to talk.
when everyones coupled up and you have no one to talk to
there is nothing really to do except go one after the other
killing yourself.
i fall into reality as my foot slips from the rock.
banging my knee against the rocks.
the wind so cold.
the night so cold.
couldnt even enjoy myself i was panicing for warmth.
forcing a smile on my face i walk back to the ball
of cuddling people.
i sit by myself.
text messages were the way to hide our true complection.
i guess its easier to say those words on that then in person.
its easier to communicate when your behind a screen.
i just wait.
we go home. but i cant go home. i go to the park.
bathroom for warmth.
smiles and laughter on everyones faces.
glossy eyes of happiness.
i guess everyone needs that little boost for happiness.
i know i did.
it made things better.
it made it harder to talk to her.
i dont think i even made much sense.
but things sure got better.
we talked until almost sun up.
and everything worked out.
i mean like i feel better.
i dont think she does.
i mean there is still "tyler"
i feel bad. i feel is all my fault for all this confusion.
it could be better if i just wasnt around.
everything would be so much better.
but there is nothign you can really do now.
i threw everthing up in the wind last night.
i will just have to wait to see where this wind is heading.
and just go with it.