???
You have done more harm then good, you have hurt me in ways I never relly imagined were possible. Im not trying to be dramatic Im just saying I never felt pain like the pain you caused me. I thought we had moved past alot of shit, and that we might have been headed back to the begining of this whole mess...our friendship. I guess I was wrong...and I know you say you feel like I make you the bad guy. Or that I agitate you by pointing out that your one with no time, but its thr truth I mean christ you admit that. And yes its a bit more complicated then a normal friendship because I never loved, or planned on creating a life with, or made love to a friend before. But if we made it this far why the hell are things becoming so fcked up now?
I wish I could tell you what I honestly what I thought was happening...because the email you sent to me today was so overdramtic and not even in response to what I said to you. The real problem is that you cant handle being friends because time spent with one another reminds you of us, it bring up feelings you cant deal with and makes you feel guilty becuase of your current relationship. Just fckn say that, dont try to turn it around on me and make it like its my fault. Say you still care to much and its to hard...at least I know and would respect the truth. I dont respect the bullshit lines you tried to feed me...and then you ask me what I think of what we have together now, and what I would like it to be? You know as well as I do I would not have chosen this path, this was your choice. But we both talked and made a concious decision to remain friends and try to get through the bullshit. Its been how long now...over a year nearly a year and half. We have meandered through the toughest water as far as Im concered. Im just hurt that cant trust me enough after 3 yers to just be honest...it all hurts the truth less then the lies though!
I wish I hated you, I wish I dint miss my friend, I wish I didnt give a fuck what happened to you..it would make this alot easier, but thats not who I am and you know that as well. Those are the things you always said you loved...now they are the things that are driving you away. Gotta love life and the irony of it all huh?
I wish I could tell you what I honestly what I thought was happening...because the email you sent to me today was so overdramtic and not even in response to what I said to you. The real problem is that you cant handle being friends because time spent with one another reminds you of us, it bring up feelings you cant deal with and makes you feel guilty becuase of your current relationship. Just fckn say that, dont try to turn it around on me and make it like its my fault. Say you still care to much and its to hard...at least I know and would respect the truth. I dont respect the bullshit lines you tried to feed me...and then you ask me what I think of what we have together now, and what I would like it to be? You know as well as I do I would not have chosen this path, this was your choice. But we both talked and made a concious decision to remain friends and try to get through the bullshit. Its been how long now...over a year nearly a year and half. We have meandered through the toughest water as far as Im concered. Im just hurt that cant trust me enough after 3 yers to just be honest...it all hurts the truth less then the lies though!
I wish I hated you, I wish I dint miss my friend, I wish I didnt give a fuck what happened to you..it would make this alot easier, but thats not who I am and you know that as well. Those are the things you always said you loved...now they are the things that are driving you away. Gotta love life and the irony of it all huh?