Hope

[inspiredfly]

I feel like an imposter. I feel exactly like the Pauper of the Prince and the Pauper. I'm in a palace, and I'm pretending to be something I'm not. I'm not royalty, who am I kidding?? And here I stand, invited into the presence of the King and afraid that he'll see me for what I really am, a prostitute, and his eyes will darken with a sense of

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[panda_whoopin]

Well, even if I didn't think you were cool, God still does, and he's who really matters, right? I mean, I don't have to tell you that he's forgiven you for all those sins, including the ones that are "piling up even as I speak". I don't have to tell you that you're not just a forgiven sinner but that you're a new creation that is righteous holy and pure in God's sight. I don't have to tell you those things, but I am because they're good to hear. It's like John Meyer likes to say, if God didn't like you, he wouldn't have made you.

The major lessen that I had to learn recently is that I don't have to die to my desires, rather I just need to shift their focus. We as believers have already been crucified with Christ, so you are dead already; no need to die again. God gave me desires for adventure, relationship and such, but he gave me those with the purpose of revealing himself through them, so when I focus on me, I don't see God, my desires suddenly become the very thing thing that prevents them from being fullfilled - an idol.

I don't know if that's what's causing the hurt and pain and frustration in your life right now, but it's what was causing mine. I just thought I'd pass all that along. I'll keep praying for you.

BTW, I DO think you're cool. One of the coolest people I know.