hold on to that feeling
I've been meaning to write an entry, but what with Livejournal going down and having issues with the wireless, I could not think of anything every time I sat down.
I feel like I've gotten out of touch with the world, particularly with my friends both in real life and online. I feel like I have to watch what I say, and hope that what I do say is remotely close to the right thing to say, and always doubt my own intelligence and self-worth because I get the impression I'm doing it wrong always. That is not the life anyone wants to lead, but that is where I ended up, without even realizing it.
Despite my age, I still am a child, naive of the world, but unlike a normal child, I am not learning anything from life lessons. Or maybe I'm learning things, but I'm then forgetting. I need to open my mind and accept new things, as hard as it is to do, because I think I should know these things by now, but apparently I haven't.
I need to go on a journey. I need to discover who I am, what I really want to do with my life. I need to create new relationships with people I would normally never talk to. I need to form new bonds, see new places, try new things and most importantly, learn from my experiences and do better to not forget.
So I'm leaving you guys. I'm leaving behind everything I know. Although my mom never wants me to leave home, she agrees that I am too naive as I am right now, and I need to grow somehow, and if that means going away, then so be it.
But you'll see me around, don't worry.
CATCH THEM ALL.
That's right, friends, I'm gonna catch all the Pokemon.
Thanks to jedipwnces and Aka, I am in the possession of a rose pink DSlite and Pokemon Black. I've followed Pokemon for years but have never actually gotten a game to play, never thought I would.
Now I'm making up for lost time.
As you may have guessed if you know anything about me, I chose Snivy as my starter, and named him Basil, after my favorite herb in Italian/Thai/Vietnamese cooking, and also Basil the great mouse detective, named after Basil Rathbone, etc. VERY CREATIVE. Only took me about 2 hours to choose and name him, ask Ryan. Turns out he's not as interesting/powerful as the other two, but OH WELL, HE'S SMART-LOOKING!
And then he evolved to Servine, and oh he's so pretty and snooty and strong. I was THRILLED to learn his design was influenced by French royalty, haha. He fits me so well. I feel like we are best friends in imaginary Pokemon world in which you can fit animals into little balls and they're okay with that.
As you can see, I have been busy moving back home from Temple to Dallas. I am also studying for my benchmark exam on the end of the month and the pharmacy boards sometime this year. It has been extreeeemely difficult so far, I think I'm going to barely pass this exam. Not only that, but I am searching for jobs, just went to a job fair this Monday, but no luck, there were no current pharmacist openings in hospitals anywhere around here... that are being advertised, anyway. I put my resume up at monster, so maybe I will get a call... HAHA.
My mother is as difficult to appease as before, and persists in making awful food that I can barely stomach, and also putting my things where I can't find them and she can't remember where she put them, a trait I also inherited. Also she and my brother still argue over stupid things, but we've gotten used to that.
However, I did watch some movies which I shall briefly mention.
Rumba - a movie in French that is a black comedy about a couple who love Latin dancing. I think I was not the intended audience, although my mother and I did get some good laughs in. Love the colors.
Raging Phoenix - a movie in Thailand that's about a girl who gets taught drunken muay thai by some dudes whose loved ones were kidnapped and people get the shit kicked out of them for like 2 hours. The plot is kind of lame, but the fight scenes were wicked and blew my brains out.
Lawrence of Arabia - I only watched the second half, so that was probably why I didn't get it.
The Chronicles of Narnia - what, I haven't seen it yet. I was taken to a dreamworld of magic. It was wonderful.
Percy Jackson and the Olympians - I liked being able to predict everything without having read the book, that is the power of reading Greek myths as bedtime stories when you were 9 years old.
Some other things happened, but mostly I am sleeping and wishing to die in the night every night like I usually do.
I feel like I've gotten out of touch with the world, particularly with my friends both in real life and online. I feel like I have to watch what I say, and hope that what I do say is remotely close to the right thing to say, and always doubt my own intelligence and self-worth because I get the impression I'm doing it wrong always. That is not the life anyone wants to lead, but that is where I ended up, without even realizing it.
Despite my age, I still am a child, naive of the world, but unlike a normal child, I am not learning anything from life lessons. Or maybe I'm learning things, but I'm then forgetting. I need to open my mind and accept new things, as hard as it is to do, because I think I should know these things by now, but apparently I haven't.
I need to go on a journey. I need to discover who I am, what I really want to do with my life. I need to create new relationships with people I would normally never talk to. I need to form new bonds, see new places, try new things and most importantly, learn from my experiences and do better to not forget.
So I'm leaving you guys. I'm leaving behind everything I know. Although my mom never wants me to leave home, she agrees that I am too naive as I am right now, and I need to grow somehow, and if that means going away, then so be it.
But you'll see me around, don't worry.
CATCH THEM ALL.
That's right, friends, I'm gonna catch all the Pokemon.
Thanks to jedipwnces and Aka, I am in the possession of a rose pink DSlite and Pokemon Black. I've followed Pokemon for years but have never actually gotten a game to play, never thought I would.
Now I'm making up for lost time.
As you may have guessed if you know anything about me, I chose Snivy as my starter, and named him Basil, after my favorite herb in Italian/Thai/Vietnamese cooking, and also Basil the great mouse detective, named after Basil Rathbone, etc. VERY CREATIVE. Only took me about 2 hours to choose and name him, ask Ryan. Turns out he's not as interesting/powerful as the other two, but OH WELL, HE'S SMART-LOOKING!
And then he evolved to Servine, and oh he's so pretty and snooty and strong. I was THRILLED to learn his design was influenced by French royalty, haha. He fits me so well. I feel like we are best friends in imaginary Pokemon world in which you can fit animals into little balls and they're okay with that.
As you can see, I have been busy moving back home from Temple to Dallas. I am also studying for my benchmark exam on the end of the month and the pharmacy boards sometime this year. It has been extreeeemely difficult so far, I think I'm going to barely pass this exam. Not only that, but I am searching for jobs, just went to a job fair this Monday, but no luck, there were no current pharmacist openings in hospitals anywhere around here... that are being advertised, anyway. I put my resume up at monster, so maybe I will get a call... HAHA.
My mother is as difficult to appease as before, and persists in making awful food that I can barely stomach, and also putting my things where I can't find them and she can't remember where she put them, a trait I also inherited. Also she and my brother still argue over stupid things, but we've gotten used to that.
However, I did watch some movies which I shall briefly mention.
Rumba - a movie in French that is a black comedy about a couple who love Latin dancing. I think I was not the intended audience, although my mother and I did get some good laughs in. Love the colors.
Raging Phoenix - a movie in Thailand that's about a girl who gets taught drunken muay thai by some dudes whose loved ones were kidnapped and people get the shit kicked out of them for like 2 hours. The plot is kind of lame, but the fight scenes were wicked and blew my brains out.
Lawrence of Arabia - I only watched the second half, so that was probably why I didn't get it.
The Chronicles of Narnia - what, I haven't seen it yet. I was taken to a dreamworld of magic. It was wonderful.
Percy Jackson and the Olympians - I liked being able to predict everything without having read the book, that is the power of reading Greek myths as bedtime stories when you were 9 years old.
Some other things happened, but mostly I am sleeping and wishing to die in the night every night like I usually do.